What Concealed Inside

Insatiable

White's POV

I feel like dying here. I've been alone for too long that i'm starting to lose focus on everything that i do. I could only met him during video calls in the night or calling him during the day, but it could only add to my loneliness.
Captain seems to be ok with our separation, and it makes me so uneasy with my feeling. He often tease me, speaking the words of love which he seldom said to me when we're close to one another, and he tease me with his closeness to his friends and relatives which drives me over the edge.

I'm a jealous guy, i know that. Being a fake casanova like me doesn't help my feeling at all. Especially when your partner is not a jealous type like him. I tried to make him jealous to spice up our life, but it always ended up i'm the one being tormented instead.

But now is not the time to talk about jealousy. I miss him. So bad. No one can replace his place in my heart, yet i couldn't come to where he is now, making me all the more miserable.

Once i asked him to turn the video call alive so i can watch him sleeping. And i put the darn smartphone by my side so i can imagine him sleeping beside me. That bad. And it was only a month after i'm gone.

Everybody around me was getting restless because i gets angry all the time though they made no mistake. Hey, they made mistakes. Who said they don't? I maybe a little too overboard sometimes, that's all.

I know they've been talking behind my back about how incredibly hot tempered i am, but i can't do anything about it while i can't handle myself.

Believe me, i did everything to try to handle this feeling of missing him. But every time it's getting so much harder as time goes by.

I look at my surrounding. It was all luscious green grass everywhere i go to test the durability of my shoes brand on the field. But that luscious green grass reminded me of our trip to Bali a few months ago and i feel all the more miserable right now.

I want him, and i want him now. I miss the touch of his dainty fingers on my face, i miss how he scolded me when i made mistake, i miss how his eyes looking at me like i'm the most adorable person in the world, i miss how he treated me gently, i miss how he speaks to me so honestly, i miss everything about him.

I twisted our ring and kissed it, the only consolation i have when i miss him so bad. "Young Master, the board members are all here, we're waiting for you to join us." I turned to my assistant and nods at her as a sign that i'll be joining soon.
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Captain's POV

Someone from P'White's company had been waiting for me in my house when i arrived this evening. He waited patiently by my front gate, soaking in the rain, with his lips and hands bluish from the cold weather. I thought he was a zombie so i didn't got out from the car until i was sure that he's a living person. Talking about creepy...

But after showering and changing some clothes (he doesn't have any spare clothes so i gave him mine), i think he look human enough. He's actually a nice middle aged man with
a nice looking face and a big sturdy appearance. My clothes can barely fit him and i chuckled looking at him trying to fit into that oversized sweater (it's too small for him) .

It took a glass of hot chocolate for him to start a decent conversation. His eyes are searching for something but when his eyes met mine, he quickly cast his gaze down.

"So you are P'White's employees? What can i do for you?" I started the conversation since he doesn't seem to talk anytime soon.

"Uhh..umm..i thought young master's fiancee would be beautiful..but you are..you're far more beautiful..and kind hearted.." he said in a broken Thai. He's apparently Chinese, but tried so hard to speak Thai. I laugh at his naivety.