Deadly Rhymes and Laughing Times VOL I

Finding My Own Beat

It takes two to tango. You hear? Two.
So tell me what I'm doing here without you
How am I supposed to dance alone
When you were the music that moved my bone

Now my life is left silent with no sound
Tell me..what you're looking for, was it found?
You went on this journey of self discovery
Forgetting that love is your way to recovery

You disappeared as soon as the song was over
And all I saw was the back light of your black Rover
You just moved on without as much as a goodbye
Didn't even care about me. Did I smile or cry?

And now I'm here. All alone, with no beat
Down on the floor, slumping in defeat
Thinking about all the songs we sang
How it brings me pain. A sharp kind of pang.

As I lay awake, on my cold lonely bed
I think about everything you ever said
Your mouth spewed nothing but sweet lies
And I believed every word. Even your fake disguise

I believed your deceitful , colourful hues
Until all I saw were different shade of blues
And now I'm stuck in the darkest shade of all
A sinkhole, a blackhole, where all I do is fall

I've fallen too deep and I can't get back
All I hear is silence, and all I see is black
I feel numb and hollow, I can't feel a touch
Since you've been gone; I haven't felt much

Hollow and numb? Or naïve and dumb?
Either way I was under your thumb
I never believed a world without you even existed
But I woke up to a reality far more terrifying and twisted

With you leaving, I have a burning, gaping hole
Sucking at my life, and draining my soul
I've become so weak, I barely have a pulse
All because you left on a sudden impulse

I'm trying to make it alone, but everything is hard
Because the love we had, left me broken and scarred
So if you're ever coming back, please don't
Because if you think I'll be running to you, I sure as hell won't

I still feel your poison running in my vein
The echo of your name leaving me insane
I would never run back to someone like you
Someone who abandoned me and looked for someone new

I'm not one to make the same mistake twice
I may be sweet as sugar, but I'm as cold as ice
If you return, you'll be locked outside my door
You're a chapter I'm done with; to that I swore.

Now I'm looking for my own music and beat
I'll dance alone. I won't give in to defeat.
I bandaged all my wounds, and buried my mistakes
And you went into the trash, along with my cracks and breaks