Deadly Rhymes and Laughing Times VOL I

#3 Of The Heartbreak Chronicles

AN: This is for everyone who loved someone so much, but got nothing in return but heartbreak and pain.
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Dead Weight

These feelings I kept here are eating me away
My love for you, alive, growing to this day
I admit it made me happy, made me feel secure
But it's driving me insane now and i can't find a cure

I felt whole and alive, i felt happy and complete
But despite the euphoria, the ending was bittersweet
Your name used to send electricity through my veins
But now, with each heart beat, I feel immense pain

Now with each breath, there's a hole in my hear
The pain is surreal, and it's tearing me apart
I can't stand the thoughts that keep echoing your name
And at this point of exile, i don't know who to blame

The feeling in my bones is draining all my power
Seconds turn to minutes and these turn to hours
Time is moving slow and there's nothing i can do
And I don't have enough energy to pull myself through

I'm hallucinating, losing my senses,I'm numb
I was vexed by you, clearly under your thumb
I was pretty blind, waiting for a word from you
But in the end, i saw the real picture; clear and true

I dreamt of you in colors that didn't even exist
But i woke up to a dull world, filled with darkness and mist
A world that was black and white, an image so tainted
Unlike the fake, colorful mosaic you so falsely painted

But you saw me as a nothing; excess baggage, dead weight
And i couldn't figure that out until it was far too late
I lost someone who clearly didn't didn't care to see me
And now i can finally say I've set myself free

I lost someone who hasn't actually died
But you lost a pure love I didn't even try to hide
And although i knew that everything i touch will break
You were the only one i wished wouldn't turn out a mistake

But you did. And for that. Good bye