Suicidal [Narry/Niam]

Chapter 1

Niall's Pov:

I shut the fridge door, returning to the couch. I sit down and put my feet up on the other end. I lay back and drink the cold soda while watching tv.

"Hey Ni" I hear from across the room. I look over to see it was Harry.

"Hey Harry".

"Want to go out and get some lunch with me?"

"Uh, sure". Harry gives me an unconvincing look and walks back through the doorway. I don't want to go get food. Ive put on weight recently and Im afraid I might get fatter. Harry is suspicious about my recent eating habits. I have to make sure he doesn't catch on. I put the soda on the coffee table in front of me and sit up. My shoes are next to the couch. Well at least one of them is. "Harry have you seen my other shoe?"

"Yeah, its in here". I followed the sound of his voice into the kitchen. My shoe was next to the fridge. I don't remember much of what happened last night. "Are you ready to go now?"

"Yeah let me just get my headphones".

"Why do you need your headphones?"

"I don't know". I shrug it off with a small laugh. I make a dash upstairs to my bedroom. Underneath my bed was a small metal box. I opened it and saw the diet pills Ive been craving. I opened the bottle and swallowed a couple. I closed the pill bottle and metal box, pushing it back under my bed. "Found em'" I shout while coming down stairs.

"Alright lets go" he says.

"Where do you wanna go?"

"Anywheres fine I guess."

"Hey, are you feeling alright?" Oh god no. The question Ive been dreading forever. Im just going to play it cool. "Lately, Ive noticed you havnt been yourself. You havnt been eating as much as you used to."

"I think my eating habits have been fine. My stomachs just been a little upset lately."

"Are you sure?"

"Yes."

"Alright. Do you wanna go to Nandos?"

"Sounds good." The drive there seemed like forever considering Harry has almost found of about my eating disorder. We didn't talk much.

We arrived at Nandos and there was hardly a line. Considering it was an afternoon, Id expect it to be filled with people but it wasn't. The waitress showed us to our seats giving us menus and such. I already knew what I was getting so I didn't feel too much of a need to look at the menu.

"Hey, what are you going to get? You hardly looked at your menu." Harry asked me.

"I already know what Im getting. I think Ive been here enough times Harry. I get the same thing every time".

"Oh, alright." He said in a muffled quiet tone. I hope I didn't hurt his feelings or something. He's so cute, Id be crushed if I hurt his feelings. The waitress returned to take our orders.

"Ill have the Double chicken wrap [no lettuce]" I said.

"And Ill have a double chicken wrap with cheese and pineapple". Harry ordered.

"Ill have those ready for you soon" the waitress responded kindly. She walked back to the kitchen.

"Can I ask you something Ni?"

"Sure Harry. Anything."

"It seems like you've been covering something up lately. Is there anything I should know about? I just care about you and I don't want anything bad to happen to you."

"Don't worry Haz. Im fine." Following the phrase, I plaster a smile on my face that would convince him that I was happy [even though I clearly was not].

When the waitress returned with our food, I just ended up picking at my food instead of eating it. I mostly just sipped down my water. By the end of the meal, Harry finished his food leaving his plate clean. My plate was covered in bits of the chicken wrap. The waitress returned for the last time leaving the check and taking our plates with her back to the kitchen.

"Thank you. That was lovely" Harry said to the waitress. She smiled and nodded before leaving. We got up and left Nandos.