Suicidal [Narry/Niam]

Chapter 11

Niall's Pov:

Im startled and quickly sweep the metal box under my bed. He cant know about it. Ill have to lie about the pills but he certainly cant know whats in the metal box.

"Oh jeez Lou. You scared me!" His face is kept straight.

"Ni, what are those."

"What are you talking about?"

"You know what Im talking about. The pills in your hand." He says sternly.

"Oh. This is just my ADHD medication."

"Is that what the bottle says?" He questions me.

"Well, uh. Yeah." I tell him reassuringly.

"Lemme see." He motions his hand out for the pill bottle.

"Well...uh..." Im left speechless in the moment. I dont know what to do.

"Niall." I look into his eyes and give him the pill bottle. His face widens as he reads it and realizes what it is. "Niall, why do you have these?"

I tell him the half truth. "Management gave them to me. They said I needed to lose a little weight."

He stared at me in awe. I couldn't hold back the tears. They rolled down my face. "This is unacceptable. How long has this been going on for?"

"Just the bottle. It was the only one. I wasn't going to get anymore."

"Assholes." He mutters under his breath. "I need to talk to them about this. This isn't right."

"No Lou! Don't!"

"And why not!" He shouts back.

I pause. "I wasn't supposed to tell anyone. It was our little secret. You have to promise you wont say anything more about any of this. Ive only lost a little weight and Im at a better weight now. I wont take anymore. Just please don't tell them!"

"Promise you wont take anymore?"

"I promise Lou."

"Okay. But Im taking these away from you. I don't want you to take anymore. Alright." Fuck. I could probably just get more from management. "This is my fault. I should have payed more attention to you and noticed that something was going on. I worry about you a lot and even though I try my best, sometimes I don't notice when something's going on and I feel terrible. What kind of shitty friend doesn't notice when his best friend isn't acting right?" Tears fell from his cheek. He was upset. I stood up from my bedside and pulled him into a gentle hug. He warped his hands around me and stopped at my sides. He felt them. He stopped his sobbing. His sobbing turned into quiet tears. He felt my stomach and my ribs. "Niall. You're so thin." I wish. "How long have you been taking these?"

"Just the bottle. I swear." I was lying.

"You're really thin. Please. This isn't healthy." He cries.

"Lou its fine. Im not that thin. Its okay. Don't be upset."

"Is this why you've been distant?"

"Kinda. Stupid, right?" I look at my shoes.

"Its not stupid. From now on, Ill be taking more care of you for sure." Oh great. I love Louis but Its going to be impossible to cut and get the diet pills with him around. Plus, how am I going to be able to still smoke and drink? "I don't want you to resort this ever again. You're better then this. Im never letting this happen again. Niall Im so sorry."

"Lou its fine." I reassured him.

"Niall, its not. You've gotten so thin and its unhealthy. You need to be at your best." He pulled me back into a hug, gentle this time because of my frail figure. But, he's unaware of my bruises and cuts underneath my sweatshirt.

"Shh its going to be okay." We sit on the edge of my bed. His head rests on my shoulder.

After his crying subsides, he asks if I want to go watch a movie with him. I gladly accept his offer. We spend the rest of the night on the couch under a blanket watching movies and cuddling.