Suicidal [Narry/Niam]

Chapter 27

Niall's Pov:

The car ride home was long and silent. Not even the radio was on. Liam and I just sat in silence, both shocked. The air was thick and tense. I cant believe I told him about my cutting. Thankfully, I haven't told him about my recent suicidal thoughts or my lingering depression. Eventually, he will put pieces together and start figuring out things. He cant know. I have to start hiding everything again. I cant trust Harry anymore. He probably told Liam. I cant trust anyone.

I hope Liam still likes me. I don't want him thinking any different of me. He probably does. After all, who could love a boy who's depressed?

Liam pulls up into the driveway. Harry, Zayn, and Louis are already home. Their car is here. I just want to go inside and sleep. Maybe take a shower. I just want to escape. I go around the front of the car and start walking to the door as Liam's getting out of the car. He shuts the car door and stops me in my tracks.

He kisses me on the lips. He looks deep into my eyes. "Niall, I care about you a lot and I always will. I just want to make that clear. No matter what happens, that will never change. Always remember that. I may not know what its like to self harm but I will always be here for you... until the end. I don't want you hurting your precious self anymore. If you're ever thinking about cutting again, please come talk to me. I want to help."

I cant hold everything in anymore. I reach around him and hug him tightly. Startled at first, he hugs me back just as tight. "I love you Liam. I always have." I admit to him.

He pulls away from our embrace. "I always have too."

I kiss him and hug him hard. I rest my chin on his shoulder. Feeling in the moment and slightly bold I feel the need to ask him a question.

"More than Danielle?" I laugh.

"Of course... of course." He let out a sigh and released himself from our hug. "Lets go inside."

He walks forward into the house and I follow behind him, closing the door behind us.

"Hey Liam! Niall! You're home!" I hear Louis shout from the kitchen.

"Yeah!" Liam chuckles.

He leaves to go to his room immediately. I stick around the living room for a moment. I lean against the post in the door way.

"Hey Harry!" I tell him.

He glares at me slightly and then his look quickly brightens up. "Hey Ni." He laughs.

"How long have you been home?" I ask him.

"About 20 minutes. Zayn went for a walk. He should be home soon I think. I've been home with Louis." He glares at me again.

"Oh..." I say. Before I have time to say anything, Louis comes from behind me. He wraps his arms around my waist and puts his head on my shoulder from behind me.

"Hey Niall." He says chucking a bit.

Harry's gaze shifts back towards the tv. It didn't take a scientist to tell he was pissed off.

"Uh, hey Lou."

"How are you?" He asks.

"Im good." I smile awkwardly. "What about you?" I ask.

"Bored." He frowns.

I glance back at Harry quickly. His eyes roll and he sighs, shaking his head.

"Come play a game with me Ni." He tells me.

"Later Lou." I laugh.

"Okay." He lets go and leaves to go back into the kitchen.

I walk over to Harry and sit on the couch next to him. "He's so annoying." Harry tells me.

"Yeah kinda." I grin at Harry.

"Such an ass." He shakes his head and looks back at the tv.

"I guess." I say quietly.

At that moment, Zayn walks in from the door way. He comes around the corner.

"Hey lads. Mind if I join?" He asks.

"Not at all." I tell him.

He sits on the couch next to me and leans back into it. He puts his hands behind his head and relaxes a bit. All three of us watch tv for a half an hour uninterrupted.

"I haven't seen Liam in a while. I wonder where he is..." I think to myself.

"Im going to go get my phone charger." I tell Zayn and Harry.

I get up from where I sat between them and leave to go to my room. On the way to my room, I pass by Liam's room. Curious, I knock on the door. He doesn't answer. I peek in, he's asleep in his bed. He's so cute when he sleeps. His chest rises and falls slowly. The blankets are tossed and turned in every direction. I grin and close the door.