Suicidal [Narry/Niam]

Chapter 17

Niall's Pov:

I woke up in Liam's arms. I could feel his warm breath on the back of my neck. His grip around my small waist was tight and firm.

I admired the moment for another second before I got up. I let out a yawn and stretched a bit. Before I got up, I felt something against my bum. I sat there for a moment and wiggled it. I realized what I was pushing up against. Liam had an erection! He was easily 10 inches!

I sat there for a moment. Stunned but at the same time, turned on. I don't know how Liam would react if he was awake. I take this moment and might as well do something. I try and do something that wouldn't seem like I was turning him on but did turn him on. Nothing subjective.

I slowly move my ass closer to him. I feel his erection pulse a little. He pushes it closer and harder into my ass.

"Oh, I see you're awake." I hear Liam say. His voice is really deep and sexy in the morning.

"Yeah." I moan and stretch at the same time.

He lets go of his grip around my waist and rolls out of bed. "Sorry about my morning wood." He awkwardly laughs.

"Nah man its fine. I don't care too much." I say as I roll my back onto the bed. Secretly, I care a lot. If he asked me to, Id blow him right now.

He walks out of my room. I cant help myself but stare at his ass as he walks out. He catches me staring at him and grins. He opens the door to leave. Before shutting it, he looks at me and winks. He winks at me in a way that makes my heart melt into a thousand pieces.

I let out a sigh and fall back into my bed. I stare at the ceiling and think about Liam for a couple minutes and how great he truly is. Hes sexy, funny, nice, kind, lovable, talented, thoughtful, gentle and overall just great. I don't understand why anyone wouldn't want to date him. He's perfect!

I look at the clock and it reads 7:50. Reckoning how tired I was, I decided to go back to sleep. I fell asleep thinking about Liam and I ended up having a dream about him. It was just a simple dream. Me and him on a relaxed date at a small bakery. We kissed a couple times. It was cute. If only it was real.

I woke up at 11:00. I sat in my bed for a couple minutes thinking about the dream I just had about Liam. I grab my phone on the night stand and unlock it. No notifications. I opened twitter and scrolled through it. I kept reading hate comments. Most of them were. There weren't any real positive ones.

It made me tear up inside. I felt a knot in my chest. My heart hurt. It physically hurt. It just felt so overwhelmed. Tear after tear, my heart pain subsided a bit.

I reached under my bed and grabbed my metal box. I sat it on my lap. Unlocking it, I open it up and reach in for my blade. I put the blade on the sheet next to me. I take off my sweatshirt and reveal my white shirt and cuts on my arms. I put the blade to my skin making new cuts. Cut after cut, blood oozes out. The pain makes me feel better. The sight of blood calms me. Soon, cuts cover my whole arm.

I put the blade back into the metal box. I set it on my bed. I get out of bed and go to the bathroom. I wash my cuts and clean them up. Soon, the blood stops pouring out. They finally close up. I feel better.

I go back to my room and put on a new sweatshirt to cover my arms.

I step out of my room and go to the living room. Louis and Zayn are both sitting on the couch. I walk over to join them.

"Hey Niall. How'd you sleep?" Louis asked politely.

"Good. And you?" I ask him.

"Good." He smiled at me and winked. He chuckled a bit.

"Ni, me and Louis were thinking, why not have a movie night tonight? Like just us 5 sitting around watching horror movies or something. You in?" Zayn asks me.

"Sounds great! Im in." I tell Zayn. Although, Im deathly afraid of horror movies, I bet Liam could just protect me. His big and strong enough to!

"Alright. Lets say, 9:00? We will order pizza or something." Zayn tells me.

I probably wont end up eating. "Okay."