Suicidal [Narry/Niam]

Chapter 12

Niall's Pov:

I wake up on top of Lou. I must have fallen asleep on top of him. He had his arm around me and his other arm under his head. I felt his heartbeat under me and it felt soothing. He's so cute when he sleeps! I just wanted to stay there forever.

For once, I woke up without a hangover. It was okay. But the hangover is worth the pain. Drinking solves a lot of problems and if a hangover is the price I have to pay, then so I must.

I don't remember Harry ever coming home last night. I mean, I might have been asleep but I have no idea. I feel really bad for telling him I hated him. Obviously, I didn't mean it. Harry's my best friend. He seemed to take it pretty hard. Maybe I should go make sure he's okay.

I got up and left my slumber with Louis and went into the hallway, finding the way to his room. I open the door a little and peek inside. Harry is curled up in a ball on his bed still sleeping. He didn't bother tucking himself in. I look at him for another moment. He's sleeping in a t-shirt and sweatpants. I look closer, specifically his arm. Under his bracelet, I see four faded red lines.

"Oh my god!" I whisper to myself. I gasp. At that moment, Harry makes a groaning sound and rolls over. I cover my mouth to prevent another sound from escaping.

I cant believe Harry cuts. Or, were those cuts? His room is kinda dark and I was looking from a far away point. Maybe what I saw was wrong. It has to be. Harry's happy. He's not depressed. He cant be. Id die if he was. I notice a tear beginning to form in my eyes.

This cant be happening.

Liam comes from behind me. He scares me but at that point in time I don't care. "Niall what are you doing?" He laughs a little. I close Harry's door quickly. I tuck myself into his chest and hug him. The bruises still hurt from when I got beat up. But I don't mind at that particular moment in time. "Woah, woah Niall, is everything alright?" I continue hugging him.

"Everything's fine."

"Then why are you hugging me out of no where?" He pointed out.

"I'll tell you later." I bury my head closer to his chest.

After a minute or so, I feel better and let him go.

"Now Niall, tell me whats wrong." He demanded.

For a moment, I think. Should I tell him? I could just tell him a lie. I try my best to make up a lie. "My mum bought a fish almost a year ago. Today, she texted me and told me it died." Such a stupid lie.

He squinted at me. He looked right through my lie. He knew something wasn't right. "Niall. Is that what really happened?"

"Uh...yeah." I tell him. He probably didn't want to force me to tell him so he let it go.

"Im sorry Niall. He's in a better place." Liam tells me unconvincingly. He lets go of our grip and continues to make his way to the kitchen.

At least Liam didn't make me tell him. I cant believe Harry would do that to himself. There has to be another explanation for his cuts. Ive never noticed them before. Maybe I should try and talk to him when he wakes up. He might not feel to good about having me notice his cuts. If someone noticed mine, I wouldn't take too kindly to it. Ill mention it to him if he brings up the subject in some way.

I retreat back to the couch where I woke up this morning. Louis is awake but looking tired.

"Morning Ni." His voice sounds sexy in the morning. Its so deep.

"Morning Lou. How'd you sleep?" I ask him.

"Well. It felt much better sleeping with someone then alone." He let out a little bit of a laugh. "Much more peaceful." I laughed too. I liked sleeping with Louis. Things did feel more peaceful and relaxed.

"I agree." I chuckled.

Zayn walked into the kitchen and I followed him. I was a bit hungry so I decided to get some cereal. Not too much though.

"Morning Niall." Zayn spoke to me.

"Morning Zayn." I told him. "Just getting some cereal." I grabbed the box of lucky charms on top of the refrigerator. I poured myself a bowl and replaced the box. Theres a spoon sitting on the counter so I decide to use it.

"Oh look, a little leprechaun eating his lucky charms!" For a moment I was confused, until I realized that Im the little leprechaun.

"Quick! They're after my lucky charms!" I say as I dart out of the kitchen laughing. I heard Zayn laughing as I ran out too.

I make my way from the kitchen to the living room where Louis sits. I sit next to him and eat my lucky charms. Zayn enters the living room too and sits next to me. The only one without cereal is Louis who just got up.

"How are the lucky charms Ni?" Zayn asks.

"They're magically delicious!" I tell him. Lou, Zayn and I laugh hysterically.