Suicidal [Narry/Niam]

Chapter 21

Niall's Pov:

"Lets go Ni!" Lou shouts.

"Coming!" I shout back. I cant find any of my hoodies. I only have the hoodless one. So, I pull the sweatshirt over my head.

I agreed to go drinking with Lou. I just need to get my mind of things. Drinking just makes me feel better.

I come out of my room and make my way to the door.

"You ready?" Lou ask.

"Yeah." I tell him.

"Hey, where are you going?" Zayn asks from around the corner.

"To the bar. Wanna come?" Lou asks said.

"Sure. Let me just grab my jacket." He tells us.

Zayn returns soon after with his jacket. "Okay lets go."

All three of us leave the house one after another. We all walk side by side down to the bar down the street.

On the way there, we spent the time talking. Somehow, we all get on the topic of Harry.

"You and Harry seem pretty close." Zayn points out to Lou.

"Well after all, he is my best mate." Lou tells him. He seems a bit uneasy.

Seeming it was the right time to say something, I tell them "More than best mates." Zayn bursts out laughing. I join in.

Lou only chuckles a bit. He retaliates. "You and Liam get along real well."

"Yeah. Not as close as you and Harry are though" I point out.

"Larry shippers know what their talking about." Zayn tells Louis. I laugh.

"Oh whatever." Louis says.

We arrive at the bar. Immediately as I walk in, the bartender shouts "Ni! Lou! How are you doing?"

"Pretty good. What about yourself?" I ask him.

"Good, good. Who's your friend?"

"Oh, this is Zayn." I tell him.

"Nice to meet you Zayn." The bartender says. "So, what can I get you boys?" He asks. We order our drinks and sit on the bar stools.

Soon enough, were drinking drink after drink. Lou and I easily hold down our liquor. Zayn however has a little bit of trouble drinking so much. He drinks enough to get drunk though, but not enough to throw up. Me and Lou keep at it though.

He pulls out a cigarette and lights it up. "Hey Ni. Want one?"

I look at him for a moment. "Sure!"

"You smoke?" Lou looks shocked.

"What are you gon do bout it?" I slur at him.

"Nothing. I want one." Lou tells me.

"Well here!" Zayn hands one to Lou. He places the box in front of me on the bar and inhales the smoke. I take his lighter and light up. I hand the lighter to Lou who does the same.

The combination of smoking and drinking feels lovely. The burning sensation combined with the numbness of alcohol is great. Why haven't I tried this before?

We all have a couple more drinks and laughs. The bar is empty for the most part and its late in the night. We've all had a lot of smokes and drinks, enough to make us drunk and for our clothes to smell of smoke.

"I wonder how Liam and Harry are doing." Lou points out.

"Yeah! We should check on em'" I point out.

"Yeah!" Zayn says.

We all leave the bar and end up finding our way home barely. We get slightly lost only once but we get home. All three of us stumble into the house. It seems like no one is up. I go to the kitchen and get myself a glass of water. Zayn ends up going to bed right when we get home. Lou crashes on the couch in the living room.

When I come into the living room I hear Lou. "Come sleep with me Ni! Im lonely."

Drunkenly, I say "Sure!" I pile myself on top of Lou like how I normally sleep with him. My head on his slowly rising chest, his hand playing with my hair. This moment feels nice. I fall asleep almost instantaneously.