Suicidal [Narry/Niam]

Chapter 33

Niall's Pov:

"I don't care if you hate me. In fact, you probably do hate me. I just hate seeing you hurt." I said.

"Then why'd you kiss him?" He asked boldly.

"I didn't! He kissed me! Of course I shouldn't have let it happen but it did." I said.

"Just leave Niall."

"No."

"Leave me alone Niall."

"Im not leaving you Harry."

"Get the fuck out!" He shouted at me.

"What? So you can try and kill yourself again? Im not letting that happen again! Yeah, I fucked up. But Im not going to fuck up again and let you kill yourself." I said almost angrily.

He slumped in his bed.

"I hate you Niall." He said.

Most people do. He's probably saying it out of anger at me. I sighed.

"Is everything alright?"

I glanced over my shoulder towards the door. Zayn was standing there looking in. He pushed open the door a little farther.

Harry shoved his razor blade under his pillow quickly and hid his arms from Zayn's view.

"Yeah were fine. Just talking thats all." I laughed.

"Yeah." Harry said shyly.

Zayn gave us another look. "Alright." He said subtly. He closed the door and left.

I sighed. "Harry. I love you and Im not leaving."

"Please leave." He sounded upset a bit.

"Im not making that mistake again." I said.

"Please." His voice cracked. "I don't want to be here anymore." He admitted. He started to cry.

I felt guilt. Im the reason Harry doesn't want to live anymore. If I wasn't here anymore, everything would be better.

I don't want Harry gone either. I love him. I don't know what I would do without him. Whenever Im upset, he's always there to make me happy. I know the other boys feel the same. Maybe not as much Lou, but everyone loves Harry.

I felt a stinging in my heart. As I watched him cry, I began to cry.

"H-Harry... don't say that..." I whispered.

"But its true." He whispers back.

I sighed. I got up off his bed. "Niall. Don't leave me." He said.

"Im not going to." I smiled at him.

I pulled open his dresser drawer. Inside his dresser drawer, I found a roll of bandages. I grabbed it, and shut his drawer shut.

I turned back to look at him. He was watching me. I smiled at him despite how upset I was feeling.

I walked over to his bedside where he was. I hold his arm out. He was bleeding from elbow to wrist from his cuts. I wrapped the bandage around it, using most of the bandage on the roll.

I placed the roll on his night stand. I sat back on the bed next to him. I looked into his eyes for a moment. He looked confused.

I kissed his cheek and snuggled into bed next to him, laying a hand on his chest. He wrapped his bandaged arm around me.

"Im never going to leave you again." I told him.