Suicidal [Narry/Niam]

Chapter 23

Niall's Pov:

When we got home, the first thing I did was I went to go change. I made my way to my room shutting the door behind me. Diving into my closet, I pull out sweatpants and a sweatshirt.

I wonder why Harry was so upset. Something big must have happened. I really hope he's okay. I hope whatever is bothering him isn't too bad. He shouldn't be unhappy. He deserves the best and only the best.

This dark cloud thats bothering me is terrible and I hate every second. I cant imagine how he must feel being burdened by the same type of thing. He shouldn't have to go through it.

I know he's probably going to self harm later considering how upset he is. Of course, I don't want him to at all. Id probably fuck things up and make things even worse if I tried to help. I cant tell any of the other boys about him cutting. He would be devastated. He needs help though. I want him to be happy.

I leave my room with my new clothes on. I pull up my phone from my pocket and unlock it. Aimlessly, I walk to the living room. Once I get in, I look up.

Harry looks upset while looking at his phone screen. His face reflects a mixture of fear, depression and terror but subtly.

"Harry?" He looks up from his phone and his expression changes.

He looks suprised and stunned but only for a moment. "Oh Hey Ni. I... um... I gotta go to my room real quick." He brushes passed me.

I stop him. "Whats wrong?" I ask him looking him in the eye.

He looks away. "Nothing." He tries to continue passed me.

"Harry." I look him in the eye again. "Whats wrong?"

He breaks into tears. He hugs me and holds me tightly. I've never seen him so upset and heart broken in my whole life. He sobs into my shoulder. I wrap my hands around his back and rub it.

"Nothing's going right!" He sobs.

"Why not?" I ask him.

"I cant tell you. Its between me and someone else."

"Im sorry mate." I say sincerely. I honestly hope whatever is going on between him and this other person is going to be okay in the end. But my gut feeling, is that it wont.

"Its fine." His sobs quickly subsides but doesn't stop. "Im fine." He murmurs. He lets go of our embrace. He pushes passed me.

Nervous, I ask "Where are you going?"

"To my room, where I can cry miserably by myself." His eyes are empty and cold. Almost lifeless. He doesn't look himself.

"Awe Harry..." I walk closer to him. "Promise me you wont cut?" I ask looking into his eyes.

"Promise." His monotone response gives me a bit of chills. I've never seen him so upset and heartbroken. I really hope he doesn't hurt himself.

I give him one last look. "I kiss him on the cheek." I smile at him. I continue into the living room.