Devon

Chapter Twenty Eight

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Art's POV

"Jess." Napatingin naman siya sakin and she furrows her brows. Her lips pressed on a thin line.

"What do you want now?" Tanong niya sakin. Napangiti ako.

"What happened back there?" Tanong ko sakanya.

"What do you mean what happened?"

"Jessica." Sabi ko. I know she knows what I meant. Bumuntong hininga siya.

"Forget it. Kalimutan natin yung kanina."

"You're upset." I pointed out.

"I'm not."

"Don't lie."

"I'm not." Napailing nalang ako. Di talaga aamin. Lumapit akong lalo sakanya hanggang tumabi na ko at umupo na din sa kama.

"Then what?"

"I'm... I feel...I don't know."

"Be honest with yourself Jessica. We haven't even talked yet. Like really talked."

"Ang hirap naman kasi Art. Ano ba kelangan nating pagusapan."

"Lahat. Us." Andami dami ko gusto pagusapan Jess. If you only let me open up.

"What's there to talk about?"

"Jessica I'm not playing around here." I know iniisip niya parin dahil sa mga naririnig at nakikita niya na nagmumukha akong player. But I'm really done. I just want her.

"Neither am I. Ano ba tayo? May tayo ba?"

"For me. Meron." Sabi ko.

"You're a player." She said. I smiled sadly. I expected that. Pero may kirot parin sakin na masabihan niya ko ng ganun.

"Nope. Not anymore. I know reputation ko ganun. Ganun na tingin ng tao sakin pero here I am isa lang ang binibigyan ko ng attention pero siya pa ang nagtutulak sakin palayo. Naguguluhan din ako."

She was silent for a while. Observing. Her face softened a little. She touched my right cheek. Ang vulnerable niya tignan ngayon. She was looking at me as if tinitignan niya kung ano nga ba talaga ang nasa isip ko.

"I don't know what to see. I don't know what to hear. I dont know what to choose. I don't even know if I can accept. I don't know what to feel about this."

"Then see with your heart, not just your eyes. Then hear with your heart, listen to it. Choose with your heart and accept me. Accept yourself. Those feelings of yours, you just need to feel them. Not deny them. Your heart and brain should know."

"I'm not a lesbian like you." She whispered. I gritted my teeth. We wouldn't have a problem if I was a guy then?

"But you're in love with one."

"I didn't say na inlove ako sayo." Sabi niya. Ang stubborn talaga.

"Hindi mo kelangan sabihin. Alam ko na. Kahit ideny mo. Kahit na nasa isip ko baka niloloko mo lang ako sa actions mo. I have this feeling na I'm holding on to. That you love me too. Even just a little bit."

"Then I guess.. I'll see if it's worth it." Sabi niya sakin at bago pa ko makareact ay nilapit niya ang mukha niya sakin.

"Kiss me Artemis. Kiss me and make me feel till I completely understand... 'cause isa lang ang pumipigil sakin para hindi mahulog sayo ng tuluyan. Myself."

Napangiti ako. I think you have already fallen Jhet. You're not straight. And I can prove it to yourself. I'll make you realize it. I'll make you accept.

"My pleasure."