Run Away for my Baby

Chapter 9

Holly

That night I couldn't fall asleep. Hearing Ollie and Alyssa downstairs kissing made me nauseous but then I heard arguing for some reason it made me feel relieved.

When I heard the front door slam shut I tried to fall asleep again but I couldn't because of my baby bump. It was uncomfortable to sleep without support. I finally decided after a short while that I would go and see Ollie, maybe he would have helped me.

I got up out of bed and waddled to Ollie's room across the hall. I slowly opened his door trying not to disturb him much.

He startled me though, "What you doing here?"

"I couldn't sleep, the baby bump is getting too big for it to be comfortable to sleep."

"I'm sorry babe, lay down with me for a while," Ollie gestured to me. I quickly got to him and watched as he pulled back the bed covers. "Lay down." I laid down swiftly, snuggling closely to him. He wrapped his arms tightly around me, his hands resting on my baby bump. "I can't believe in three months we'll be meeting our baby for the first time."

"I know. I always thought this day would come when I was older and married but I glad it’s now with you. I don't regret this at all."

"I don't regret it either. I glad it’s you that's is having my first child, if it was anyone else I might have felt differently." He took a minute to think. "I want him to grow up well, I want to be supportive of his decisions and I want him to encourage him to look after his child if he gets a girl pregnant young."

"I agree with this," I told him truthfully. I didn't my possible future son to leave his child.

We laid in silence for a while both of us listening to the other breathe. I could feel my eyes get heavy as I listened to him. He sounded gorgeous. He took a deep sigh before turning me around to face him. I look straight into his deep blue eyes, my heart pounded heavily. "Can I tell you something?" he whispered his lips barely moving.

"Sure," I whispered back. Why isn't he mine, I suddenly thought. 

"I've never told anyone this..." he stopped for a second. “My dad died three years ago in a car crash, my brother was there when it happened and it was all my fault."

I'm shocked, he's never mentioned that he had a brother and never mentioned his father. "No matter what happened it wasn't your fault," I told him truthfully touching his face gently.

"It was. It happened the day before my fifteenth birthday, it was late at night my dad was driving my brother home from college as a surprise for me. I had been asking for him to come home for weeks, if I hadn't of asked they wouldn't have got into the car crash. My brother survived but my dad died instantly. My brother, Wes, he blamed me for what happen. Dad and Wes were close so he was greatly affected. We only found out after Dad died that he was suffering from lung cancer, he smoked a lot, it was the cause of the accident really. He was having a coughing fit when it happen and didn't see the other car.

"Wes came home after Dad died but then he started drinking and when he came home he beat me. This happen about three times a week for a year until he pushed me on the corner of the door." He picked up my hand and moved it into his hair. "Feel here." I felt a jagged line under his soft hair. "My head cracked open here. My mom came in at that moment and found out everything.  After my dad died my mom spent all her time working and only came home for a few hours at night. She didn't know what was happening to me. My brother was going to kick me again but my mom told me to run.  That was the last time I saw either of them. I know I can never go back."

"I don't blame you."

"Thank you Holly," he said quietly resting his forehead on mine. I looked at his closed eyes, he looked so peaceful. I wanted my lips to be on his soft ones. I softly touched my lips to his before quickly pulling away.  I missed his lips. I missed everything about the boy I used to know. I saw a glimpse of him tonight.

I know I'll always have a special place for him in my heart because he was my first love, even if it was just for a summer. I will be happy for him when he finds a nice girl and settles down with her. I'll be happy when he has more children and I'll be happy when he's happy because that is what you do to someone you love.

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In the morning when I woke up I looked to see Ollie staring at me lovingly. His arms were still around me from last night and his hands rubbed soft circles on my belly. He spoke in a low whisper, "I want to name our son Jamie because that was my father's name."

"Thank you for telling me," I hugged him tightly.

“Thank you for giving me this baby.”

"I couldn't have done it without you," I giggled happily.

"No you couldn't have," he laughed back tickling me.

This started a tickle war between us and soon enough we found ourselves lying next to each other out of breath. Every few seconds one of us would let of a quiet laugh. It was nice. I felt free.

"I've got to get up, I've got work on an hour," I said looking at the clock in his room.

"Babe, I want you to cut down the hours you're working it's not good for the baby."

"No Ollie, I'll work as much as I like, I've already cut it down to half, and I only work weekends now."

"Fine just be careful," he said kissing my forehead.

"I will. See you later. "

"See ya."

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After I got dressed, I headed downstairs for breakfast. As I walked in Carley was sitting on the work top eating a large plate of food. "Hey Car," I smiled at her.

"Hey Holl. How are you?" she looked up at me looking a bit pale.

"I'm good. You?"

"Fine," she said holding her hand over her mouth.

"Are you sure?"

"I've got a bit of a stomach ache but it’s nothing to worry about. I'll be fine."

'Why don't you take the day off I'm sure Sara won't mind."

"No I'm good. I'm ready when you are."

I accepted this and hurriedly ate my breakfast.

The day flied past, Carley and I worked well together serving the customers. Carley only had to leave a couple of times because of her stomach bug. I really hope she would be okay.

When we got back dinner was prepared for us, which was nice.

And when night fell I headed up to bed and crashed unexpectedly in Ollie's bed. A little while later he came in and snuggled up to me. It felt so good.