Run Away for my Baby

Chapter Twelve

It was the day of our divorce, we would be meeting our lawyer and therapist at three this afternoon. I didn't want to go. I didn't want to divorce Josh, I had fallen for the man I hated in the last six months.

Last night I was alone in bed while Josh slept downstairs on the couch. I missed him around me to say the least. I couldn't bear sleeping next to him because I knew that I was leaving him.

We drove in separate cars to the court house. The lawyer greeted us when we arrived and led us to his office. Our therapist was already sitting in the office when we arrived.

"Take a seat," the lawyer said gesturing to the two seats in front of his desk. We took the seats and to face where he was sitting. "So you two have been married for six months now, are you still seeking a divorce?"

"Yes," Josh and I replied together.

"Okay then. I just need to make sure you have completed all of the steps necessary for the divorce to be filed. I only have a few questions to ask. First, Mrs Callaway you did live with Mr Callaway for the duration of the divorce proceedings, is this correct?"

"Yes sir, here is the proof of my accommodation." I handed over my details for my college accommodation which was the address for Josh's house.

"Good. Do either of you have proof that your families are aware of your relationship?"

"Here," Josh handed over his phone to the lawyer with a picture of us at Christmas with the family. "We spent Christmas Eve with my parents and Christmas day with Anna's."

"Okay. Finally I just need to check with Ms. Godwin here that you did attend all sessions and hear that you did try to work your marriage. Ms. Godwin, you may speak."

Ms. Godwin, the therapist, sat up in her chair and turned to Josh and I. She then spoke with her calming voice, "When I first met you too I wondered how you two ever got together because all you did was argue. But you had passion as you yelled the words at each other. There were some days when you were calmer, I liked those days because I got to see the real you. I think for the first four months of your marriage was the hardest for you guys, but then for most people the first year is the worst. Somehow, over the Christmas break you two changed. You both were closer to each other, you had less arguments and were genuinely positive around each other. It was easy to see the attraction you two have for each other over the last two months. I really don't know why you're divorcing, I anything you should be getting married again. You are perfect for each other because you balance each other's emotions."

"Thank you, Ms. Godwin. Do you two still want to divorce?" the lawyer asked us after Ms. Godwin had finished speaking. What she had been saying had been running through my mine for the last few moments, I hoped divorcing Josh was the right decision and that I would find my prince charming soon.

I turned to look at Josh, he was already staring at me. He didn't want to be with me.

"Yes, we're sure," Josh said for both of us. I knew I couldn't speak in that moment because I would cry.

"Okay then. You both need to sign here," he said pointing to the divorce papers. Josh grabbed the pen first and signed before handing it to me to sign. My hand shook as I wrote my married name for the last time.

"Congratulations," the lawyer shook both our hands. "You're finally divorced."

For some reason I wasn't happy with the decision made.

Josh and I walked out of his office together. We stood in silence facing each other. It was Josh who broke the silence, "The last six months with you have been one heck of a journey. I won't regret a minute of it because you have taught me things I thought I'd never learn. Thank you Anna Banana."

"You're welcome Joshy Washy. I'm glad I got the opportunity to get to know you, I don't hate you as much now," I smiled. "I hope some of the things I've learnt will be put into practice."

"I'm sure you will. Any guy is lucky to have you in their lives Anna and if they break your heart, call me and I'll beat them up for you."

"You're a good man Josh, can't believe it's taken me four years to realise it."

"Yeah well I was a dick to you back then. Anyway, I'd better leave you now, so you can move on with your life and be free from me. Have a good life Anna." He leaned down and kissed the top of my head gently

"Have a good life Josh," I muttered back as I watched him walk out of my life, maybe forever. I was finally free of him but I didn't feel like that. I felt trapped and lost without him.

I headed towards my car, as soon as I closed the door tears leaked from my eyes as I burst into tears. I wanted him but I couldn't have him. My heart was broken.

Once I had calmed down, I picked up my phone to call Mom. She answered straight away.

"Mom," I cried. "I can come over."
"Sure Sweetie. What's wrong?" she caringly asked.

"Josh and I, we broke up."

As soon as I got to my parents' house, Mom pulled me into her arms once the front door had opened. I cried until no more tears leaked from my eyes and my nose was running.

"What happened between the two of you? Last week you looked so happy together," she asked sitting down with me on the couch.

"It hasn't been working for us for a while, we argue all the time and we've been spending so little time with each other. We drifted apart, he doesn't have the same feelings for me anymore."

"Oh sweetie," she sighed and held me tighter against her chest.

"I fell in love with him, Mom," I sniffled.