Last Christmas You Broke My Heart

CHAPTER THIRTEEN: This Awkwardness Weighs Too Much

We spent the last night of our trip to the roof top again in the resort we are staying. Drinking beers in paper cups. Of course we need some way of hiding the beers. Although mild lang naman ito at hindi nakakalasing. We are just there looking at the stars. Enjoying the cold breeze of air brushing our skins as we move closer to each other.

Then I remembered dapat nga pala akong magpakipot. So I move away a little bit and when I looked at him, I saw him frown.

"Kanina ko pa napapansin na ang tahimik mo ah", Jason said.

I did not respond as I try to make myself busy by touching my pearls bracelet and then I heard him let a sigh.

"You know Anya, gusto kitang maging girlfriend pero kung magiging ganito lang tayo, mas okay siguro kung friends na lang tayo.

Hearing what he said made me panic and confused yet again. So I let out the first words my mind formed.

"Eh ikaw naman kasi pagbigla-bigla. Hindi ko tuloy alam gagawin at iisipin ko. Please let me breathe for a moment. Pwede naman siguro diba?"

"Hindi ko nga alam kung nakamove-on ka na kay Tris....", I continued but stopped in end my sentence because I saw a glimpse of sadness in his eyes as I'm about to say Trish's name.

"Okay. Sorry na! Aayos na'ko. Normal na lang ulit tayo", sabi ko while trying to think of my next words wisely. I turned away for a second to hide away my embarrassment on what I'm about to say and then I turn to him again and said, "Except dun sa ligaw part. Tuloy mo yun."

And like a child he suddenly light up and beamed into a smile.

The air gets colder and colder and I felt that Jason is moving closer and closer to me so I throw him a glare and like a psychic he have read my mind. Huminto na siya kakadikit sa akin at napakamot na lang sa kanyang batok.

Few more minutes ay tumayo na ako at nag-aya na bumalik sa aming mga rooms. But Jason is not moving at all. Mukhang ayaw pa niya umalis dito, samantalang ako ay lamig na lamig na.

Tumuloy pa rin ako sa paglalakad at nung nararamdaman kong hindi pa rin tumtayo si Jason ay lumingon ako. "Halika na! Ang lamig lamig na oh. Ano pa ba hinihintay mo dyan?", sabi ko kay Jason.

"Dito muna tayo. Please?", sabi naman ni Jason na umaarteng parang bata.

I crossed my arms and threw him a glare again. "Ayoko nga. Gusto mo lang maka-tsansing eh", sabi ko naman.

"Wow! Feeling naman niya", sagot ni Jason. He raised his right arm up like he's asking for help so he can stand up. "Tulungan mo tumayo para makabalik na tayo", pang-iinis niya sa akin.

I walked frantically as I closed our distance. Ako naman, sa kagustuhan nang makabalik sa aming rooms ay hinatak ang kamay niya at tinulungan siyang makatayo.

"Shocks! Ang bigat mo!", sabi ko while struggling to tug him up.

"Hila pa", sabi naman niya habang tumatawa pa.

Pagkahila ko sa kanya ay huminga muna ako ng malalim. "Ilang kilo ka ba at napakabigat mo?", tanong ko kay Jason.

"68kg", matipid na sagot ni Jason.

Napatingin at nanlaki ang mata ko sa sagot niya. "Weh? 68? Eh bakit ang payat payat mo?", tanong ko ulit kay Jason.

Tumingin siya sa akin and he gave me that pa-sexy look. "Puro muscle kasi ako, you know?", sabi niya then he gave me sexy smile with raise eyebrows.

Me. Trying to hide my kilig went on and walked faster than I should but he grabbed my hand and hold it tightly.

I looked on his hands as it tightens around my hand, then looked back to his face. "At bakit ka nakahawak sa akin?!", tanong ko while giving off this bitch voice that I mastered.

"Malamig. We need body heat to survive", sagot nang magaling na si Jason, then he winked at me.

Surprisingly, hindi tumitibok ng 130 beats per minute ang puso ko ngayon. Medyo medyo lang. I just feel quite light headed, na para bang lumulutang ako at ang gaan gaan ng paligid ko. Everything about this moment just feels so right for me. So I'll just let him hold my hand tonight as we head back to our rooms. Baka kasi panaginip lang ito. Pagkatapos mamaya magigising na ako at hindi naman pala totoo lahat nang ito. Hindi naman siguro masamang sulitin ang gabing ito, diba?