Leave Me Lonely (JB+AG)

Leave Me Lonely (13)

Ariana

Friday, December 1

1:23 pm

"Lilia, shut up! Please." I say.

Lilia had been nonstop crying since we got home, and even a little in the car. I don't know what her issue is, but she's just not happy.

"Has she done this before?" Justin asks, rubbing my back.

"Yes, all the time. She's a little brat."

"Well, you can't blame her. You are her mother."

"What are you saying?" I ask.

"You know what I'm saying. The apple doesn't fall far from the tree." Justin shrugs and I laugh, rolling my eyes.

"I hate you." I stare at Lilia, throwing a tantrum on the floor, and contemplate putting her in her crib until she falls asleep.

When she was asleep in the car, she only stayed asleep for about 20 minutes in Target. She usually takes a nap around this time, but she just wouldn't go to sleep, so me and Justin were sitting on the couch, staring at her.

"I'm gonna make her a bottle. She needs a nap." I stand up and walk to the kitchen, making Lilia a bottle that might help her fall asleep.

When I return to the couch, I pick Lilia up, and as much as she hates it, try to give her the bottle.

"Lilia Rose, please drink this because mommy is tired of you crying and screaming and she wants you to take a nap. Baby girl, I know you're tired. Can you just drink this and go to sleep, please?"

As if Lilia can understand everything I say, she calms down and finishes the bottle, falling asleep immediately after.

I throw the bottle on the floor, even though it literally just saved my life, and walk to Lilia's room. I know not to just put her in the crib, because she'll most likely wake up, so I sit in the rocking chair and rock her for a couple minutes.

After I'm sure she's asleep for good, I put her in her crib and leave her room, closing the door behind me.

"Mommy moves!" Justin says when I walk back in the living room.

I smile, sitting down next to him on the couch. Justin pulls me into his lap and plants a kiss on my head.

"You're like the best mom in the world."

"I don't think so. But thanks." I smile and Justin just stares at me.

"You're so damn pretty." He says.

"Thank you." Justin plants a kiss on my lips before I get out of his lap.

"You know I'm gonna have to go home soon, right?"

"I know, it's very sad. I'm gonna miss you."

"I'll miss you more, but I'll see you again soon, so don't even worry your pretty little head about it."

"I'll try not to."

I turn on the TV and we sit on the couch watching random shows until I fall asleep.

Justin

3:12 pm

"Ariana, my sisters acting like my mom again. I have to go." I stroke Ariana's hair to wake her up and she sighs, lifting her hand up.

I grab her hand and squeeze it, and she smiles, opening her eyes.

"It's okay, she misses her big brother. Go home." Ariana yawns and I laugh.