Leave Me Lonely (JB+AG)

Leave Me Lonely (44)

Ariana

Wednesday, January 11

10:24 pm

"She is literally knocked out." Justin says.

"This is what happens every night at some point, you just don't see it." I reply, moving some hair away from her eyes.

Lilia's asleep in my arms, with her mouth wide open, and she has been since we got on the plane.

"How is she so beautiful, when you look like that?" He asks.

"What do you mean when I look like 'that'? What's 'that'?"

"Ugly." He says simply, looking out the small window like he can see something.

"Oh really? Let me see your phone."

"Why for?" Justin gives me his phone and I unlock it, going to his messages.

I click the one at the top, which is me, of course, and go to the info section.

"Hmm, 'My Sexy Ass Girlfriend'. That looks like my number, doesn't it? Unless there's someone else in the world with my number and who's name is in your phone as 'My Sexy Ass Girlfriend'."

"Fine, you win, my sexy ass girlfriend." Justin kisses my cheek and I give his phone back.

"Of course I do." I smile.

"Yeah whatever. Anyways, so the flight is 4 1/2 hours. It'll be 2:30 am in Orange County, but 5:30 am in Florida. That's complete bullshit." Justin says.

"Time zones. Tragic." I shrug.

I put Lilia in the seat next to me, trying not to wake her up, but also trying to make sure she's comfortable with her blankets.

"You ready?" Justin asks.

"I am. But I'm nervous, too. I haven't seen them in so damn long."

"I know, but you got it, baby girl." Justin rests his hand on my thigh, and I put my hand on top of his.

"I love you." I whisper.

"I love you, too." Justin leans over to kiss me, and I kiss him back before pulling away.

"I think I'm gonna go to sleep. Whatever you choose to do with your 4 hours is up to you."

"Okay. Have fun sleeping."

"I will."

I pick Lilia up and lay her in my lap again, because I know she'll wake up and cry from being uncomfortable, and I'm trying to prevent her from making any noise at all on this plane.

4:23 am

"Oh fuck, I'm so tired." I mumble.

Lilia starts squirming in my arms and I sigh.

"And the monster is waking up. You only had to sleep for another hour, Lily." I say.

I rub her back so she doesn't start crying, and look over at Justin. He's asleep, of course, and snoring, not too loudly, though. I want to wake him up because I'm lonely, but that's also rude and he might punch me in my neck. I decide to try one time, and if he doesn't wake up, oh well.

"Justin, babe." I whisper.

I poke his cheek, and he doesn't even move.

"Great. Now I'm stuck with you." I say to Lilia.

"Wow, that sounded a lot worse then I meant it to. I'm sorry baby, I love you."

I kiss Lilia's head and she starts grabbing at my shirt.

"You're lucky it's dark in here." I whisper before allowing her to breastfeed.

I just mess around on my phone while she eats, for like 30 minutes, and since I can't go back to sleep, I stare at my sexy boyfriend until it's almost time to land.

5:34 am

"This is your pilot speaking. In about 10 minutes we will be landing in Boca Ratón, Florida. I ask that you fasten your seatbelts and prepare to exit the aircraft."

Now I finally have an excuse to wake Justin up. Yay.

"Babe, wake up. We're almost there." I poke Justin's cheek, multiple times instead of one, and he wakes up.

"That was unnecessary." He says.

"It was not. You wouldn't wake up. I had to." I shrug, fastening my seatbelt.

Justin sighs, doing the same. Just like the pilot said, we're on the ground in less than 10 minutes.

"Off this plane, finally." I say.

I give Lilia to Justin before standing up and taking her back. He grabs the diaper bag and his backpack and we slowly make our way off of the plane.

"Are you gonna cry?" Justin asks as we walk to baggage claim.

"No, I'm not." I say proudly.

"Bullshit. You'll be crying before you even see them." He chuckles.

I roll my eyes, looking down at Lilia. She's fighting her sleep, for some unknown reason. If I could be carried everywhere then I would sleep whenever the hell I want.

"Babies. So ungrateful." I mumble.

Justin looks at me like I'm crazy and I giggle.

"It's 5 am, leave me alone."

"I didn't say anything." He shakes his head.

Once we get our bags and Lilia's car seat, we go to the rental car place and get our car. My mom and Nonna don't know that we're coming today, cause I told them we would be here tomorrow, but surprises are great. Gotta love 'em.

For tonight, we're just gonna sleep in a hotel, then go to my old house in the morning. I can't wait to see them.