Leave Me Lonely (JB+AG)

Leave Me Lonely (40)

Ariana

Saturday, January 5

7:12 pm

"You're so fucking beautiful." Justin sighs into my neck.

"How did I get so lucky to have someone like you?" He continues.

I can't contain my smile, and I blush.

"Baby..." I start.

"Shh. Just let me enjoy you for a minute." Justin sits up and kisses me.

I kiss him back, wrapping my arms around his neck.

"Fuck." He moans into the kiss.

"That's all I needed. No more, I don't wanna go too far." Justin laughs, pulling away.

I look into his eyes, smiling from ear to ear.

"I love you." I whisper.

"I love you too, baby girl." Justin rests his head on my chest and Lilia comes crawling into my room.

"Hey, princess." I say.

She squeals, using the bed to stand herself up.

Justin lifts her onto the bed before turning on the TV and laying back down. Of course, he chooses to watch some random hockey game that just happens to be on.

"Canadians." I mumble.

"Excuse me?" Justin turns to look at me and I giggle.

"I'm just kidding, babe. You can watch all the hockey you want."

"Mhm, that's what I thought."

He goes back to watching TV and I pick up my phone, watching Lilia to make sure she's playing safely on the bed.

She looks up at me from her stuffed Mickey Mouse and smiles before going back to playing.

I go on Twitter and scroll through my feed, then someone knocks on the door.

"Do you know who that could be?" Justin asks, standing up.

"Nope, I don't have friends. And Tara would call me if she was coming over." I say.

"You don't have friends?" Justin laughs.

"Not any that live here, no. They're all back in Florida." I get up and pick Lilia up, following Justin to the front door.

He unlocks it and opens it, revealing my big brother. The one I haven't seen since Lilia was born.

"Frankie? What do you want?" I ask.

"Oh, hey. Nice to see you too, Ariana." He says.

"That's not really a greeting you deserve from me. Once again I ask, what do you want?"

"To talk. To you. And to ask who this is."

"I'm Justin. Her boyfriend. Who are you?" Justin says.

He probably thinks Frankie is one of my exes or something.

"Frankie. Ariana's brother."

"Half brother." I add, causing Frankie to roll his eyes at me.

"Can I come in?" He asks.

"Whatever." I move out of the way, allowing Frankie to walk in the apartment.

"9 months, wow. You're so grown up, Lilia."

"Yeah, that's kinda how humans work. What did you wanna talk about?" I sit on the couch, placing Lila on the floor.

"I wanted to apologize to you, Ariana. The way we left things was definitely not how I wanted to leave them."

"That's hard to believe." I cross my arms, looking over at Justin who's sitting next to me, extremely confused.

"Ariana-"

"No, shut up. You did not come to your own grandpas funeral, then when we tried to contact you, you didn't answer anybody. You still don't even understand how devastated Nonna was that her grandson wasn't there. Then, the way you talked to mom when you finally came home. And me. Frankie, no one has ever disrespected me like you did that day, and every day after that. You're so fucking lucky I even let you come see Lilia when she was born, and now you have the nerve to come and say what you just said to me. That was definitely how you meant to leave everything."

I feel tears in my eyes, but I hold them back. I'm not gonna cry in front of him.

"Ariana, you know why I didn't go to his funeral. I don't know how many times I have to remind you, he did not-" I cut him off.

"I don't give a fuck! He was your grandpa, Frankie. It doesn't matter that he didn't like that you were gay. All the shit he did for us, and you couldn't even come to his fucking funeral." Tears start slowly sliding down my cheeks and I don't even try to stop them.

"Ariana, baby, calm down." Justin says.

I just ignore him. I wasn't done.

"And then you finally come home days later, and talk to me like I'm a piece of damn trash and not your little fucking sister. You hurt me so much that day, Frankie. I supported you through everything, and you treated me like shit. Why? What the hell did I ever do to you?" I'm full on crying now, but I can't stop myself.

Lilia is on the floor crying too, because my yelling scared her. Justin just picks her up and walks to her room, closing the door.

"Ariana, I'm so sorry. Every day since then I've been thinking about the things I said to you and mom, and I never forgave myself for it."

"And you waited 2 years to come and apologize? Bullshit. You broke our fucking family apart."

"That's why I wanted to apologize, Ariana. Mom said you barely ever talk to her anymore. I know I'm the reason for that, and I don't want your relationship to be ruined because of me."

"It's a little too late for that." I cross my arms. 

"You don't have to forgive me, but please, Ariana. Mom is heartbroken cause you don't talk to her. You don't even let her see her only grandchild. I know you hate that I wasn't at the funeral, I know you hate that she forgave me so quickly, I know, Ariana. But please, just talk to her. It's not her fault, everything that happened is completely and totally my fault, I admit that."

I stay silent and Frankie sighs.

"I'm gonna leave now, but just know, I love you."

Frankie stands up and walks to the door, turning to look at me for a second before leaving.

I go to lock the door, and slide to the floor, crying my eyes out.

I hear Lilia's door open and Justin comes out.

"Baby girl..." He walks over to me, kneeling next to me.

"Ari, are you okay?" He rubs my back and we sit there for what seems like hours, until Lilia crawls over to me and climbs into my lap.

"Mama." She says.

I give her a little half smile and look up at Justin.

"I don't want to talk about it. At least not now." I tell him.

"That's okay. I understand , babe."

A/N DRAMMMMAMAMAMMAMAMMAMAAAAAAAA gotta love it. i know none of this stuff is true but for the purpose of the book, it is. hope you enjoyed 😘