I will not feign innocence
I know I've done wrong
But I fixed them
And put my faith in a ghost
And the trust I put in his hands slipped through
And he spoke words, angered,
That only I could hear
I took bullets and stab wounds
But he is the ghost anyway
Disappear without a trace
Say that I'm his saving grace
But then he kept pushing me away
I feel like I'm fading
I put my love in ashes blown from cigarette smoke
I gave my heart to a bed of nails
I saw an ocean of love
But I wasn't expecting the tidal wave
I wound up drowning
He throws a life raft
Pulls me in and throws me again
My fingers ache for him
My body struggles to keep warm
I am slinked back into the cold
I shiver and find my own warmth
Then I look in the mirror and remember what I was told
That everything was wrong
How much better I would look
Without the extra pounds
And I still want him
But I'm so afraid
I'll drown
