Another rainy day
A souless smile to those who pretend
And I am a pretender.
I squeeze myself into places where I do not fit,
A place where I am an outcast.
And I say I belong but I swear I look like a sore thumb,
I look like a tall man in a women's club
And I tell myself that's where I should be
And I still push myself until I am slingshotted
And thrown into another place
But everything feels so wrong
And nothing feels right
Maybe that's what keeps me up at night
My silent screams to belong
My begs and pleas for someone new,
But I still stick out
I am a cold color in a sea of warm colors,
I am a midnight snow in the middle of June,
I am a sunny day during a hurricane
And they all look like sunny beaches,
Warm spring nights and parties with friends
While I am as cold as ice in July
I try to break from this chain I have created for myself
But there's nowhere to call home
I just don't want to be
Alone
