You say you'll never be able to forgive yourself
You say you hate what you did
My heart burns like hot Cheetos at 1 am because I couldn't sleep and I decided I needed to eat
Because eating helps me forget the pain
The brown eyes the words how it all happened
I don't know if I believe you're sorry
I don't know anything
A numbness spreads across my body and I don't know what I am supposed to do
Should I intertwine with the same guy who left me back and blue
Spite tends to uproot from your stomach and spill over
Your eyes I can only imagine cried for you
Because you knew it was wrong what you did
But you didn't know the pain you put me in
And I don't know who I am
And I don't know if I want to forgive
I built up a trust that you tore down with the help of others
With the help of a girl who looked like coal
With the help of a girl who wore her mothers stains
With the help of a girl you said you loved
But I don't believe you didn't mean
What you said
Because you cannot lie about a love
You do not build up a person
With a lie
Because maybe they loved you too
And maybe they got lost in your eyes, did you know they're beautifully blue?
And they get lost in your laugh, did you, know how amazing your smile is?
They got lost in you,
And they believed you got lost in them, too,
Sometimes you need to realize they hurt too?
