Magical - Mollie and AJ's Strictly Story

Part 39 - I get so emotional baby

Thank the lord for the amazing make-up artists that work on Strictly – this beautiful masterpiece has survived the happy tears that streamed down my face during the filming of It Takes Two – and there's another advantage to not being in the final, we got to have our interview with Zoe and go through all our magic moments.

He has been by my side so much. If I was worried that he was only being loyal due to the competition, that fear has now completely abated. It is still like we can't get enough time with each other. He is still there while I have my hair and make-up done. He still includes me in his instastories – although I totally clocked him filming my backside on the way up the stairs to Zoe's studio! It's cheeky, but it also makes me feel so desired. And he was right by my side (well, where else would he be?) in the green room and throughout the interview.

In fact, I think we may have been a tad too friendly in the green room...it's so easy to be tactile when we are around the Strictly gang. We won't know until the show airs if it was caught on camera, but I don't think anyone would have noticed anyway. It was so silly...we had already been on camera and given our hello wave, then they did the same for Debbie and Giovanni, then Shirley and Darcy. As we had done our bit, AJ started stroking my knee and I put my hand over his to show affection...then I noticed the camera had moved back across the green room. I removed my hand from his and he quickly realised and took his hand away from my leg. I'm sure it wouldn't have been noticeable. It's just...we keep saying we're just friends...but I don't think friends touch each other that way. It doesn't matter anyway, we don't need to confirm or deny anything.

The interview was one of the loveliest I've ever done. Seeing all our best bits of our dances in a montage was truly moving. I cried...I laughed, especially at my slow motion 'saved' reaction on Paso week...I clung on to AJ's arm. When I was asked what I would miss most it was such a tough task not to simply say, "AJ."

I was already a mess before they showed footage of my family. Why do they do this? It was overwhelming, but in the sweetest way. I have a feeling that this week is going to continue to be an emotional rollercoaster: obviously it is sad that Strictly is drawing to a close, but it also feels like the start of a new chapter.

Tomorrow will be the first day when I won't see him since...I can't actually remember...it was when he was ill, wow, the week leading up to Halloween. I'll see him Wednesday though – group rehearsals and a cast dinner afterwards. I'd say I can't wait, but I also don't want time to fly by any quicker. If only there was a pause button on life.