Wednesday 8th October
"No. Calum. Come back in six months times. Explain to me why you left. And then i might forgive you." She sighed before shutting the door and locking me out. I screamed in annoyance punched the wall next to her door. I leaned against her front door and slid down it. Pulling my knees up and holding my head in my hands.
"Idiot!" I yelled at myself. "You should have just told her!!" I screamed. I felt tears welling in my eyes with the more i thought about six months without her. I barely survived a month without her. Never mind six bloody months. I can't believe i screwed up again. If i had only told her, then maybe she'd stay.... Maybe. I'd never let her go again. Stupid fucking games. Why does she need six months?! Who the fuck needs six months to decide whether they can forgive someone?! Charlotte Duncan. Thats who. I yelled various curse words before pushing myself up of the floor and slamming my fists on her front door in anger.
"FOR GODS SAKE CHARLOTTE!! COME OUT AND FUCKING DO IT!" I yelled at the top of my voice. "RIP MY FUCKING HEART OUT 'CAUSE THATS WHAT LOVES ALL ABOUT ISN'T IT?!" I screamed before breaking down and falling to the floor. I screwed up. She's gone. I can't believe i was so stupid to let her leave so easily. Why doesn't she want me like i want her? I just want her to need me the way i need her. But no. She's let me go. And six months is as good as I've got right now. But damn I'm gonna miss her like hell.
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