Friday 24th July
I texted Ella to let her know i wouldn't be able to come in today because of a whinging Calum, telling me that he had something special planned for us. In the end i gave in to his pleas and decided to go along with it, i mean i get to stay off work and spend the day with my boyfriend, so i'm not complaining.
Calum pulled me close to him as we both were now lying on the couch as we scoffed down another slice of pizza. We were watching Anchorman 2 because somehow Calum convinced me to watch it. And considering the fact we're chilling on the couch eating pizza and watching movies, it doesn't eactly feel special, well i guess pizza's always special, but that's not the point. The point is that Calum had convinced me to stay of work, to do nothing.
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"Char baby, i'll be back in a minute.." Cal whispered in my ear before untangling himself from me. I nodded as he stood up and made his way out of the living room, leaving me alone as i watched the end of our fourth movie; Dumbo. It was one of my favourite movies considering it was a disney film. And i managed to get Calum to watch it with me. He was trying to deny the fact that he was crying - when Dumbo's mother was in the cage and she started swinging Dumbo in her arms - but i saw his eyes glisten.
I smiled slightly as the film ended with Dumbo and his mother living happily ever after. I always loved the ending, well i loved the whole movie, it was such a deep and meaningful concept for a disney movie. Well, now thinking about it, i suppose all disney movies are deep and meaningful, but no one truley realises it unless you look at the movie script in a completely different view to how it is seen by children and quite possibly adults.
I stood up and walked over to the DVD rack as i looked for the next movie to watch, but i found myself being stumped between 21 Jump Street and Sabrina.
"Hey Cal, which one do you want to watch-" I turned as i shouted to Calum, but stopped myself when i saw him stood at the door with my guitar in his hands. I furrowed my eyebrows at him, unsure of what he was doing but before i could ask, he began strumming the chords of a song that i'm pretty sure i haven't heard before.
"Char, sit down please." He said shakily, he looked nervous so i nodded before taking a seat. I looked back up at him as he continued to play the chords whilst he spoke. "Baby, i've been writing this for a while, and i figured that i should show you my song before i show anyone else, seeing as you were my inspiration." I nodded, now coming to the realisation of what he had done. He wrote a song.... about me. "Okay i'm going to start before i back out." He said awkwardly making me laugh a little, but i soon stopped as he started the intro. I watched in complete admiration as i have never actually heard Calum sing live before.
"Tonight we're fading fast, I just wanna make this last, If i could say the things i want to say, I'd find a way to make you stay. I'd never let you get away. Get you in all the games we play." He sang, shutting his eyes tightly as he hit every note perfectly. Damn this boy could sing. I think this was my new favourite thing about him; his voice.
"So go ahead, rip my heart out, show me what love's all about. Go ahead, rip my heart out. That's what love's all about." He didn't open his eyes once as he sang, he kept them tightly shut as he strummed the guitar. I frowned a little as i remembered the day I told Calum to leave, i don't think he ever knew that i was sat on the other side of the door whilst he screamed those exact words to me.
"I want you to want me this way, And i need you to need me to stay. If you say that you don't feel a thing. If you don't know, let me go, let me go, let me go. If you don't know then just let me go." His voice sounded so beautiful but i couldn't help but focus on the lyrics.
"Let's forget the past. I swear we'll make this last. 'Cause i remember the taste of your skin tonight, and the way you looked, you had those eyes. I remember the way i felt inside, and the name of the songs that made you cry." I cracked a small smiled as a blush formed on my cheeks.
"You would scream, we would fight, you would call me crazy. I would laugh, you were mad but you'd always kiss me. And the shirt that i had that you always borrowed. When i woke, it was gone. There was no tomorrow." He sang as he finally opened his eyes and shot me a small smile as he began singing the chorus again. I returned the smile as i continued to listen to his voice as he finished the song off.
"If you don't know then just let me go." He strummed the last chord of the song before leaning the guitar on the side of th/e couch beside him. I stared at him in awe of what he just did.
"You wrote that for me?" I managed to choke out as he nodded shyly. I didn't say anymore, i only stood up before running into his arms. He smiled and kissed the top of my head as i held him closer than i ever did before. "That was amazing Cal. Jesus chritst your voice is beautiful." I said in awe, allowing it to come out slightly muffled as i didn't want to ever stop hugging him.
"Thank you for being my inspiration." He whispered and before i knew what i was doing i jumped allowing him to catch me as i wrapped my legs around his torso and pressing my lips onto his. I quickly deepened the kiss, wanting more than what i was getting. I moved my hands to around Calums neck as i began tugging roughly on the ends of his hair. He moaned into the kiss as his hands travelled south, but he stopped abburptedly and looked me in the eyes, as if asking for permission. I nodded wearily and before i knew it, Calum was walking me to the bedroom as he placed his lips back onto mine.
"God, i love you so much." Calum moaned as he laid me down onto the bed, quickly whipping of his shirt revealing his slightly toned chest. I heard him giggle as he raised my head back up so i was looking at him. "My eyes are up here, baby." He chuckled as i blushed. I suddenly grew confident as pulled of the shirt of Calum's that i had borrowed. I watched as Calum's eyes travled to my chest, causing me to slap his head. I placed my finger under his chin and lifted his head so he was looking at me.
"Eyes up here babe." I teased before reconnecting our lips.
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p.s. ooft. i can feel the sexual tension rn.
p.p.s. this was an important chapter. don't forget about this chapter.
p.p.p.s. theres only 6 chapters left of If You Don't Know )-:
p.p.p.p.s. have y'all played timberman? cause i'm addicted. i've been playing it for 2 hours straight.
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