Tuesday 8th January
92 days after.
I curled into a ball as i cried into my knees, completely ignoring the fact that Arabella was sat beside me, and has been for the past 3 hours whilst i cried. I appreciated that she was here but right now, i just wanted to be alone. She laid her hand on my back in reassurance but it didn't do me any good. Nothing felt like it would be enough any more. The only person i ever loved had just passed away, a mere 3 hours ago, in front of my eyes. Getting a phone call at 3 in the morning, wasn't the most reassuring thing in the world.
I was currently lying on my dads bed, cuddled into the blankets whilst i cried. I felt the bed dip beside me and i looked up to see Arabella. She laid down next to be before ushering me into her arms. Only now had i noticed that she had been crying too, but not nearly as much as i have been. I shuffled over on the bed as she wrapped her arms around my shoulders and pulled me close. I cried even harder into her chest, whilst she released small sobs on to my head.
"He- he's in a better place hun." She whispered but i shook my head in reply, not able to form proper words. "I know its not what you want to hear Charlie, and i don't want to hear it either, but he's not in pain anymore.." She kissed the top of my head and rocked me back and forth. I nodded in reply as i cried even harder. I mean, i knew that Ari meant well, and i really loved her like she was my own family, but even after all of this, all i wanted was for Calum to be holding me. Not Ari. I seriously missed him now. The past few months have been hell. And this just tops everything off. I just want him.
"Ari-" i choked out after a couple more minutes of sobbing. I finally managed to calm myself down a little bit, so that i was able to speak.
"Yes hun." She cooed as she stroked my hair.
"Don't leave me." I choked a little on my words but it needed to be said.
"Charlie-"
"No, i mean it. I don't want to stop talking to you just because my dad, d-died." I stopped myself before i could cry anymore. I hated looking so weak, but i couldn't help it.
"Hunny, i'm not going to leave." She cooed. "Every saturday, okay? Our day." I nodded in reply, feeling slightly reassured. But still a wreck.
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