Sunday 2nd August
"No, Charlotte. I'm done trying." He replied harshly before he turned on his heels to walk away. But i couldn't let that happen. Calum meant everything to me, and to see him walk away after all of this would kill me. I quickly wrapped my fingers around his wrist and yanked on his arm, causing him to stop in his tracks and turn back to face me.
"Cal, don't leave me, please." I whispered, barely being able to form a real sentence with the amount of tears that were falling now. I chocked up as he stared down at me, watching me physically break down in front of him.
"And why should i listen to you of all people Charlotte?" He snapped but i shook my head in response.
"You shouldn't, you shouldn't even be giving me a second look right now. But you are because your a fucking good person and i'm not. I'm the idiot that got so caught up in not being able to express my emotions, that the only way i knew how to survive like so was to push people away. I know i'm a screw up and a bitch and you have every damn right to hate me right now but i can't let you leave like this." I pleaded, allowing more tears to fall as i attempted to wipe them away. "You're my first Calum. My first boyfriend, my first love, my first everything. And i love you a ridiculous amount to even think about letting you walk away. I mean, i know i don't show it to you, but i love you beyond belief Cal. You mean more to me than anybody else. 9 months is a short time to fall in love with somebody, but i sure as hell did. And i hate myself for it. I hate myself every day for making you leave, for treating you badly, for hurting you. I just hate it. I hate that i fell in love with you, but at the same it is the best thing that ever happened to me. And i can't watch you walk away from me, knowing i was the one that broke you down. And i'm just so sorry, Cal." I was now full on sobbing. I released his wrist as i attempted to wipe under my eyes once again, but i could not stop the tears. Just the thought of him leaving again made me hate myself for doing this to him. I turned away from him a little, because i really hated crying in front of people. I didn't want to come across as weak, but i guess its a little late for that. I gave up trying to wipe away my tears and instead just covered my face with my hands. I turned back around to face Calum to apologise once again but as soon as i peaked out from behind my hands, he was instead, directly in front of me so i was eye level with his chest. My breath hitched in my throat as i didn't understand what was happening, but before i could question him, he wrapped his arms tightly around me. I rested my arms on his chest as i hiccuped a little from all the crying. He only held onto my tighter as i began repetitively whispering to him, begging him to stay. I'd never felt so weak and broken down in my life. I felt Calum place a few kisses on top of my head before pulling away from me, keeping me in his arms as he looked down at me. He leaned down and kissed me softly, it took me a moment to register what was happening but i soon kissed back.
"Jesus, baby, thats all i ever wanted to hear from you." He whispered as he pulled out of the kiss, removing his hands from around my waist and began wiping away my tears. "And i love you too. I'm sorr-"
"No no no, don't you even apologise for anything. You had every right to yell at me. You deserved to call me those names because its all true. I accept that, and i'm going to try and change... I just need a little help.." I trailed off looking down as i played with my hands.
"I'm here, i'm going to help you, i promise you, for real this time, no matter how hard things get, i'm never leaving you." He whispered as he cupped my face with his hands. I nodded softly before standing on my tip toes and kissing his lips softly.
"Thank you for loving me when i gave you nothing to love."
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The End.
p.s. wow. thats all i can say. wow.
p.p.s. there will be an epilogue, just wait for it please.
p.p.p.s. wait for my authors note after the epilogue please. i am going to explain a lot of things in that.
p.p.p.p.s. thank you for being the best people in the world and reading IYDK. i love you long time. ok bye for now.
