Losing The One You Love

The Hurt Continues.

Pha was still in shock when Yo had taken off in a hurry, tears flowing from his eyes. He knew he messed up big time, and there wasn't much of a change on earth to ever fix it. It still didn't prevent him from trying to come up with new solutions though. There must be a way to sort out this mess, there must be Pha kept repeating to himself. This couldn't end this way, it's not how he he planned it at all. While Pha was deep in his thoughts, Beam was on his phone trying to get a hold of Yo. He knew the boy needed some alone time to process all that had just happened but it didn't stop him from worrying about him. Beam just wanted to make sure Yo wouldn't do anything stupid. Love is a powerful thing and when broken can make people do crazy things. 

Beam was getting no response from Yo, it would continuously ring till his voicemail kicked in. Beam tried a few more times with no better luck so opted to leave Yo a text message instead, hoping the boy would read it. He wanted Yo to know that he was worried about him, wanting him to stay safe and to not do anything too drastic just yet. Doing something in the heat of the moment may seem like a good idea at the time but can end up being the worst mistake ever. Beam had decided to go looking for Yo, he knew the boy needed his space, but he couldn't leave Yo alone like that for too long, he was scared Yo might try to hurt himself, intentionally or not. Losing someone so close to you hurts, and Yo was so head over heels in love that to find out they didn't feel the same, that they had a side man would break anyone apart. 

Beam made sure he had everything before he headed out the door in search of Yo, leaving the forgotten book behind, not even giving Pha or Jackson a second thought. He had just gotten outside the room and was about to close the door behind him when Pha spoke "Ummm, you're not going to tell the others just yet are you? I know I'm asking for a lot but could you hold off  telling them, at least for tonight?" Beam couldn't believe Pha was asking him something like that, not after everything he's already done. "Now why should I do that? They have the right to know how much of a screw up you are." Pha wasn't surprised the least when Beam had said that, he knows Beam can be stubborn as a mule at times, but they are friends, or were (he's not so sure anymore) but couldn't he show a little compassion? Beam didn't wait for Pha's response as he continued on his way. He was already half way down the hall when Pha ran out after him saying "Where are you going? Please? I'm begging you not to tell Kit and the others. I know it's not an easy thing for you to do but please...I'm desperate."

Beam was exhausted. Exhausted of having to put up with Pha and his selfishness. All he seemed to care about was himself, not even giving Yo any thought. He couldn't believe Pha was being this heartless and self-centred. "You're asking me for a favour, now? What do you take me for, an idiot. I know what you're trying to do here Pha and it won't work. Just go back to your room with Jackson, I have to find Yo in case something terrible happens" Beam replies angrily. Pha was confused. How hard is it to look for Yo, didn't he just go back to his room? "Just go to his room, Yo should be there" he said with a strange look of concern. 

Beam couldn't understand how Pha was this stupid. He may be a medical genius but when it comes to people he could be down right dense sometimes. "Why on earth would Yo go back to his room, especially with you so close by? If I was in his shoes I would want to get as far away from you as possible. Just go back to your dorm" and seeing the look on Pha's face he continued "And no you can't come with me. You've done enough damage for one night so just leave it be."

Pha just stood there as Beam stormed off, mad at Pha for being so dumb and careless. but also concerned about Yo. Once Beam was out of sight Pha sighed then headed back to his room, not sure of what to do next. 

Throughout this whole ordeal Jackson had remained quiet, not saying a word. He didn't know what to do, everything was coming undone at the seams. When Pha and Beam had left the room Jackson thought maybe he should go back to his dorm, give Pha some space to figure things out but before he had the chance to move Pha was back, with a defeated look upon his face. When he saw Jackson standing there, he ran to him, hugging him tightly, not wanted to let go. He had already lost his Yo, he couldn't bear to lose Jackson too. He started to cry, the tear just came rolling in and there was nothing he could do to stop them. He then slowly pulled away from Jackson and looked directly into his eyes  pleadingly "Please don't leave me Jackson. I need you." 

Jackson didn't know how to respond. He loved Pha of that he was sure, but he felt he needed to distance himself from Pha for a little while, at least until the heat of all this cools down. "Pha" he says softly "I think we need to take a break. I'm not asking to break up with you I just think with all that's happened we need to spend some time apart." Pha couldn't believe what he was listening to. How could Jackson serious suggest that. Didn't he love him, was their whole relationship just one big lie? Pha grabbed a tight hold on Jackson and responded "You're going to leave me, now? I just lost Yo I can't bear to lose you too. I love you Jackson. If you left me I don't think I could survive."

The look Jackson gave confused Pha, he didn't know what was on that boys mind. "Please answer me, do you love me?" Jackson was quiet for some time before he finally says "Yes, I love you Pha but this break is needed. I'm not asking for forever just a week or 2. How would Yo feel if we suddenly announced our relationship to the public. Do you want to keep hurting Yo like that? He's been through enough already don't you think." Pha could understand where he was coming from, and although he didn't want to let Jackson go he knew it was for the best, for now. "Ok Jackson. If you think it's best for now I'll agree but I hope we don't stay apart too long." Jackson then kissed Pha one final time before heading out the door not knowing when he would return.