Losing The One You Love

Unwanted Visitor

What awaited in front of Yo's room however, was someone he was truly hoping to avoid. Didn't Pha have class right now Yo thought. Why is he waited outside my room. He was trying to think of a way to steer clear of him but he had classes in an hour and he needed to get ready. Yo didn't have any other option but to walk towards Pha as he needed to get ready for school. As Yo got closer Pha finally noticed him and headed directly towards him. He had been worried about Yo all night, to the point where he barely got any sleep. 

Pha knew he had fucked up big time. He hurt the person he claimed to love in one of the worst ways imaginable. After Jackson had left that night Pha had tried calling Yo, just wanting to make sure he was all right, but after getting no response he gave up trying. Yo had every right to be upset with him, every right to not want him around but Pha just needed to know if Yo was doing ok. That is why he was outside Yo's dorm patiently waiting for him. 

When Yo saw Pha walking towards him, his first instinct was to run far away from here. He couldn't stand being anywhere near him and just the thought of last night brought him to tears again. Before he could plan his escape Pha was already right in front of him. "Yo....I'm really sorry. I didn't mean for any of this to happen I swear. I love you, you have to believe me" Pha was saying, desperately hoping to try and mend some of the bridges between them. 

Yo couldn't believe what he was hearing. What did Pha take him for, an idiot? He knew Pha didn't mean what he way saying. You don't hurt the people you love, you just don't. Not like this. Yo was crying uncontrollably, the pain was too much to handle right now. He just wanted to get away from here. Pha tried to wipe away Yo's tears, repeating over and over again how sorry he was, but the Yo backed away the instant he saw it. "Don't touch me" Yo cried out to Pha. "I don't want you anywhere near me." "But baby. I love you. I know I screwed up, but can't we work through this?" Pha was desperate here. Still trying to be the self-centred idiot that he was and have the best of both worlds, not caring at all to Yo's feelings just his own selfish desires. He knew Yo loved him more than anything and thought if he could just talk it out, tell Yo what he really means to him that it might fix them. 

Hearing Pha continue to spin his lies was eating away at Yo's sanity. He felt so broken, so lost, so empty inside almost like a part of him had died last night with no hope of ever coming back. He couldn't take this anymore and ran passed Pha, straight to his room and locked himself away. The moment he entered his room he suddenly lost the strength to stand and fell towards the ground, leaning against the door as the tears continuously streamed down his puffy face. Yo sat there for hours, crying his eyes out, just trying to hold himself together but failing miserably. He had never felt so hurt, so betrayed in his life before. How could Pha honestly think Yo would forgive him just like that. Actions speak louder than words and Pha's actions clearly spoke the truth, that he was no longer in love with Yo. That he had found someone, clearly better, but being the player that he once was (before him and Yo) decided to keep them both around. Not thinking at all how much damage his egotistical ways caused. 

Yo looked up from his spot and saw the large portrait of him and Pha, on the night they became official. He then began to look around the room, at the various objects that either Pha had given him or Yo had collected of Pha. Filled with a sudden burst of anger and frustration Yo quickly got up and torn down every single item, everything that was a reminder of Pha. Nothing was left untouched. He was so angry and hurt that he couldn't contain his rage. There was broken glass, torn up pictures, books with pages missing and the portrait was left in tatters. He unleashed a beast inside him that not even he knew he had. 

Once everything was destroyed, once nothing was left of their relationship Yo calmed down. The previous angry Yo was replaced with the sad, depressed Yo once again. The tears poured out of his eyes, his hands were shaky and he felt like his world had come crashing down all around him. He didn't know how to go on. Pha was his life, his everything and now it was all gone. There was nothing left but empty promises and broken dreams. Yo felt like he was now damaged goods. If Pha couldn't love him, then who would? He crawled onto his bed, curled up into a ball, wrapped his blanket around himself and continued to let all his emotions flow through him. 

Yo was so lost in his own thoughts that he didn't hear someone knocking on his door. He was in his own little world that he didn't notice someone entering his room. When someone tapped him on the shoulder he screamed, and slapped the guy, thinking it was Pha trying to talk to him again. 

"Shit Yo....that hurt" Ming cried. Yo's senses finally came back and he saw his best friend right in front of his eyes. "What are you doing here Ming? Don't you have class later?" Yo asked. "Yes but I decided to skip it because Beam told me you might need some company and I can see he was right. Look at this mess Yo. What happened, did a bomb go off?" Ming joking said. Upon hearing Ming's remarks Yo burst into tears again, not caring if Ming teased him by calling him a cry baby. He was in to much pain to care about Ming right now. 

Ming, seeing how miserable Yo was changed his attitude, sat next to Yo on the bed and wrapped his arms around him. "What's wrong Yo? You can tell me anything you know that. Why are you so upset? What's happened?" Ming asked earnestly. Yo was still crying in Ming's arms but he managed to reply. "Pha....." Yo struggled to finish his sentence before he lost all control again. Ming was confused "What about Pha? Did he do something to you?" Ming was not liking where this was going. Yo quietly spoke again, desperate to hold it all together "Pha....he cheated on me. With Jackson." Yo couldn't say anymore because he couldn't contain his emotions.

Ming was furious upon hearing this. How could Pha do this to poor Yo? Ming had entrusted Yo into Pha's care because he had promised him he would take care of Yo. Promised him to always protect Yo from anything but he just fucked up big time and Ming was going to make sure Pha knew exactly what he had done.