Losing The One You Love

Shattered Dreams

Yo was absolutely devastated. Finding out the one you loved, the one you gave your whole world to was seeing someone else behind your back was soul crushing. He only wanted to drop by and tell Pha the good news about his mother and maybe get to cuddle a little. It was a terrible feeling to discover that his boyfriend, the one he'd been crushing on since highschool and was now dating, was sleeping with another man.

Yo didn't know where he was going, all he knew was he needed to get away. He couldn't stand to be anywhere near Pha right now, which is why he didn't go straight back to his dorm, knowing full well Pha could drop by at any moment. He knew it probably wasn't wise to be out alone at this time of night, but there was so many thoughts running through his mind. Yo just needed some time to himself. He didn't understand how someone who claimed to love him could be so heartless, who could destroy everything he had worked so hard to build.

 It wasn't the easiest thing in the world to be Pha's boyfriend, though he was taken it didn't stop girls coming up to him regularly to try and win his heart. It sometimes would unsettle Yo, the way the girls would flirt with Pha right in front of him, but throughout all this Pha had kept reassuring Yo that no one would ever get between them, that his heart only belonged to him. Showing him daily that no one else mattered to him, that only Yo had his love. He was able to gain Yo's full trust and devotion, taking Yo's heart completely in his hands leaving Yo with nothing left if he were to ever break it. Yo had given Pha everything and to watch the person you love completely demolish it in one night was beyond unbearable. To watch an entire relationship wash away in the blink of an eye. 

Yo had been walking for quite sometime when he felt like he couldn't continue anymore. He was tired, cold and most importantly hurt. He didn't know how much further he could go before his legs gave out but luckily enough there was a small bench not to far in front of him. He strolled over to wooden bench and took a seat, contemplating on what to do next. One thing he knew for sure was, Pha and him were over. There was no coming back from this. He could never be with someone who clearly didn't love him anymore. As he sat there, with dried tear stains on his cheeks, he felt the cold metal ring on his right hand. Looking at the way it shined in the moonlight Yo couldn't help but wonder why Pha had really given him this ring. It clearly wasn't because he treasured Yo, that Yo was his only love, that he wanted to spend the rest of his life with him. He knew that they were all lies, told to keep Yo happy into thinking that Pha still cherished their relationship while he was off having fun with someone else.

As he was staring at the ring around his finger it got him to thinking. Why would Pha give him this in the first place. I mean Yo was clearly not important to him anymore so why bother. Why bother giving him something like that knowing it means nothing to himself? Yo was sitting there for awhile until he was reminded of the day. It was the day after his birthday, the one Pha has missed because he overslept in a hotel after picking up his birthday present. They went out for dinner that night, Pha's way of making up for him missing his birthday, and during the evening he gave Yo the ring explaining the meaning behind it. 

Something had always felt off about the reason behind Pha's absence on his special day, it didn't seem like Pha at all. Unfortunately he didn't really question it, especially after Monday night, because Pha had given him such an amazing gift, or so he thought. It suddenly dawned on him, how could he have been so blind, it was all right in front of him but he was too lost in love to see it. Pha didn't get him the ring because he wanted Yo to know how much he cared, he had gotten it purely as a distraction. A way for him to keep hiding the sad truth from his boyfriend, that there was someone else in the picture, that Yo wasn't his only love anymore. It crushed Yo's heart to no end and in one quick motion removed the ring and threw it as far away as possible, hoping to never see it again. 

It was passed midnight when the coldness really started to hit Yo and despite being overly tired he decided to head back. He had only walked a few feet when reality hit him. If he goes back to his dorm now he risks the chance of running into Pha. He wasn't too keen on seeing him at all, not wanting to be anywhere near him for the time being. So he just decided to check into a nearby hotel for the night. As he was walking he noticed he has numerous missed calls and text from both Pha and Beam. He didn't want to deal with anything right now so he turned his phone off. Everything could wait till later, right now he just wanted a nice warm bath and cosy bed to sleep in. Today had really taken it's toll on him.