Losing The One You Love

The Start Of The End

3 months had flown by and Jackson has become a part of the doctor gang. It was like they had been friends since forever, no one would of thought that only 3 months ago these guys were complete strangers. Over the course of this time Pha and Yo were still going strong, spending as much time together as they could. Yo was so so extremely happy. He still couldn't believe this hunk of a man Pha was truly his but everyday Pha showed him what Yo meant to him. To most people you would think Pha was being a kind, caring, thoughtful boyfriend, which was true,  but partly Pha was being overly loving because he thought if he put all his energy into his relationship with Yo he'd forget about his strange feelings towards Jackson. Jackson was doing the same thing, focusing all his energy on his studies in hopes to forget about his crush on Pha. No matter how hard they both tried it wasn't working.

During the course of 3 months Pha and Jackson had pretty much become inseparable, spending so much time out of class together. Going to movies, lunch dates, to the beach. If you didn't know that Pha already had a boyfriend you would of swore those two were dating.  Pha sometimes even forgot about his dates with Yo until the last minute. He luckily hadn't missed any yet but at this rate it was bound to happen soon. This was driving them both insane. Pha knew he loved Yo, but a part of him felt like he was missing out on something and that Jackson was it. Jackson was so confused. He knew what he felt towards Pha but there were plenty of times where he felt that perhaps Pha had felt the same. It was driving him insane.  A part of him wanted Pha all to himself but he knew it was selfish since Pha already had someone. It got to the point where Jackson had decided to spend less and less time with Pha and would rarely spend time with him alone in fear of what might happen. It started off small, just a missed lunch date here and there, but then Jackson rarely spent any time with Pha at all, even in class. These feelings were both driving them insane to the point where Jackson had just decided to completely avoid Pha thinking it was for the best.

It had been a week since Pha last spoke to Jackson and it was really bothering him. Over the course of these few months Pha had thought that Jackson liked him, that Jackson had felt the same way about him as he did about Jackson. Did he do something to Jackson that has him avoiding him like the plague? Pha didn't know what do to, so one Friday afternoon he went out along to the Golden Tail and drank like there's no tomorrow. He couldn't shake the horrible feeling that he was about to lose someone dear to him. While drinking Yo never once crossed his mind because all he could think aout was Jackson and how he could get him back. After a few hours of downing his sorrows he had the oh so 'brilliant' idea of dropping by Jackson's dorm to finally figure out what's going on. Pha hailed a cab and was on his was to Jackson's dorm when Pha's phone started ringing. Yo was calling him but he decided to decline the call as he wasn't in the right head space to talk to Yo atm. How do you explain to your boyfriend that you go drunk and are heading now to some guys dorm to find out while they've been ignoring you all week. During those 3 months Pha felt like maybe just maybe Jackson liked him too but after this week his hopes had been dashed. 

A few minutes later Pha had arrived outside the dormitory, paid the taxi driver then headed on up to Jackson's room. By the time he had arrived he had sobered up a little and knocked gently on Jackson's door. After a few seconds he heard the door open and there was Jackson standing there in his boxers and a tank top. Mesmerised by what he saw Pha had almost forgot why he came here. Brought back to reality Jackson asked why Pha had suddenly appeared. "What are you doing here Pha?" Jackson asked. "I don't know. I just want to know why you've been avoiding me all week" he replies. "I've just been really busy with school work lately. Nothing to worry about." Pha didn't buy that for one second and asked again. Jackson didn't know what to say. How do you tell your friend, who has a boyfriend, that you're secretly in love with them and it breaks your heart to see them happy with someone else. Jackson just stood there for a few minutes before deciding to speak up. "I think it's best if we don't hang out for awhile. I just need some space to sort out some things." Pha was confused as to what things Jackson needed to sort out then it hit him. Was it possible that Jackson liked him too? Is that why he was staying away from him? 

There was so many questions running through his mind but the one thing he wanted to know for sure was if Jackson felt the same way he did. So before Jackson knew what was coming Pha had grabbed his head and kissed him. Jackson was shocked to say the least and when he got his senses back pushed himself away from Pha. "Why did you kiss me?" he asked quietly. "I just wanted to see if you liked me the way I like you." "But why? You have a boyfriend, Yo. He loves you and you love him. This isn't right. These feelings shouldn't exist." "But they do and I can't help it. I really do like you. Heck I love you Jackson. Don't you feel the same way? Isn't that why you've been avoiding me?" It is true that Jackson was staying away from Pha for those reasons and he didn't want to become a home wrecker. "Yes I admit it. I love you Pha but we can't be. You have Yo......" Jackson didn't get to finish his sentence as Pha kissed him again, this time deepening the kiss. All the reasons that this shouldn't be happening flew out the window as Pha inserted his tongue into Jackson's mouth, dominating the kiss. Pha then pushed Jackson back into the room, closing the door behind them, making sure to lock it.