Sinner's Confessions (Montero Series # 2)

Chapter Thirty

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Chapter Thirty

[Enna's Pov]

Sometime four years ago...

" Meditation can help you, Enna, but the mind should be willing. You have to be convinced that you will heal eventually. Otherwise what we're doing will be pointless in the end," my therapist said.

I nodded my head. I started seeing my therapist again after Mikho had agreed to do the IVF. I wanted to heal for our babies. I had been trying so hard. This is the only thing that I'd ask for. Kahit na natatakot ako because they'd come out as a twin. The doctor said that multiple births were a complication but I didn't want to see it that way. Most cases naman na nabasa ko kahit twin, normal namang lumalabas ang mga babies. Marami lang talagang cases ng IVF na nagiging kambal kahit wala naman sa genes ng couple.

Our session ended after an hour and I headed to the locker where I left my personal things. Bawal kasi sa session ang interruption, like cellphones. Mikho knows na susunduin niya rin ako after an hour.

Pero I was startled ng makita ko ang missed calls sa phone ko . There was none from Mikho. Galing iyon sa lola niya at kay Mommy. Mikaela was rushed to the hospital because of bleeding.

Hindi ko maintindihan ang nararamdaman ko habang papunta ako sa hospital. I was so worried and scared. I didn't want to think about the possibility na mawawala rin ang kambal namin. Hindi ko kakayanin.

When I came, I went immediately sa room kung nasaan si Mikaela. Mom and Lola said they're on the way because they came from a family friend in San Francisco.

Pero pagbungad ko palang sa pinto nakita kong nakayakap si Mikaela kay Mikho. And then what I feared the most happened.

Mikaela kissed him and I saw that he kissed her back.

Nakita ko.

Pakiramdam ko huminto ang paghinga ko.

I went stiff, that's when Mikho had probably felt my presence.

I looked at him with tears in my eyes. I didn't question how he was taking care of Mikaela pero bakit niya nagawa sa'kin 'to? I was having a hard time healing. I thought he was with me. Akala ko naiintindihan niyang hindi ko pa kaya ngayon? I thought he would never cheat on me?

There was Andrea in the past tapos ngayon si Mikaela!

"Enna!" he called me pero nakalabas na ako. What did I do in the past to deserve this? Bakit ba hindi ako binibigyan ng pagkakataon sumaya? I was looking forward to healing again and then suddenly something would come to take away that chance from me. Like I have to go through the same process again. Babalik muli sa dati. Paulit-ulit. Bakit ganito?

My body was shaking and I just found myself going inside the hospital's fire exit. Nanghihinang napaupo ako sa stairs.

I trusted him enough. I know Mikho loves me.

"Palangga..."

I quickly stood up to shrug his hand away from my shoulder. "Don't touch me!"

"I'm sorry.. " he said with guilt in his eyes. He tried to hold me pero pumiksi ako.

"How dare you! Kaya ba hindi mo ako tinawagan?"