Sinner's Confessions (Montero Series # 2)

Chapter Ten

Chapter Ten

I'm very sorry dahil super duper tagal ng update. I don't even know if I do make sense for posting this but I did try. Thank you so much sa mga readers na sumusuporta. There maybe a few of you pero kayo talaga ang inspirasyon ko sa pagsusulat. Love you all. Dedicated sa inyong lahat 'to kahit crappy. Lol. 😘

[Mikho's POV]

IN your anger do not sin; do not let the sun go down while you're still angry and do not give the devil a foothold.

I heaved out, easing the burden in my chest. I have never once shouted nor showed hostility in anyone but I did earlier. My anger was pressed into one like a bolt of lightning. I lost my wallet to God knows where or who. Enna left the apartment without even texting me--only to find that she was out wearing a cut-off shirt without a bra. And she lent the money that was only left of us to a person she doesn't even know! God, I don't know what I'd do with the brat. She seems like a kid masked in an overgrown woman's body.

God, forgive me.

I knelt down in front of the altar and made a cross sign before I stood up to walk my way to the confessional box.

I sighed and cleared my throat after coming inside the confessional. "Bless me father for I have sinned..." I started.

"How long had it been simula ng huli kang mangumpisal?" the priest behind the box answered.

"Last year, father," sagot ko. That was when we went to a retreat house in Vatican.

"Ano ba ang mga nagawa mong kasalanan?"

I coughed out. I was already here. Might as well confess everything.

"Nagpakasal po ako na hindi alam ng parents ko. They expect that I'd become a priest after five months but I had sex with a woman and had her pregnant. I married her after knowing that she was pregnant with my baby."

"Is that the only sin you committed, son?"

"Marami pa po, father. But I don't know if I'm even allowed to say this one."

"Try me," he coolly said.

I cleared my throat again. "Every time I see my wife, I couldn't think of anything but sexual. I haven't been with any woman for more than a decade, father. And she's just the only woman I ever had sex with. Whenever I do the deed...the s-sex...I always end up hurting her...physically," I sighed and continued. "Last time, I've bruised her but it was unintentional. I would never intentionally hurt a woman, father."

I'd like to think that my desire was suppressed for a very long time kaya ganoon ako sa kanya. I've only kissed and petted my previous girls. I've never tried it all the way with them.

"Iyan lang ba ang kasalanan mo?"

"M-meron pa po..." I put a hand to my head and let out a loud gasp. "I wasn't able to take hold of my anger earlier. She went out of the house without telling me and she lent the money that was only left of us to someone she barely knew. I flared up."

"Did you hurt her physically?"

"No! Hindi po, father. I wouldn't do that to any woman. And certainly not with my wife." The thought of hitting a woman horrified me. My dad and my brothers will surely kill me if that happens.

"Meron pa ba?"

" I couldn't think of any, father. Pero marami pa po."

He heaved out. "First, lusting over your wife is never a sin. Natural at pinahintulutan ng Diyos na maging sexual ang isang tao sa asawa niya. Sex wouldn't be created in marriage if it's a sin. You only sin when you think sexual apart from your wife. Adultery is one of them. At hindi naman kasalanan ang magalit. God himself had often showed anger to his people but it was out of love. Minsan nagagalit tayo dahil concern tayo at mahal natin ang isang tao. Ang galit na may pag iimbot sa kapwa natin ang masama. Siguro ay kailangan niyong pag usapan na mag asawa ang sex life niyo. You end up bruising your wife. Sa tingin ko ay hindi maganda iyan kahit hindi mo intensiyon iyong gawin sa kanya. Also talk to your parents, son. Iba parin ang pagsasamang may basbas ng mga magulang. God will bless more your marriage. Pag-usapan niyo ng mahinahon ang problema niyo. Wala namang hindi naayos sa matinong pag-uusap."