Before I start to read the journal, I go into my bathroom. I look at the guy staring back at me in the mirror. I do look awful; my eyes are bloodshot with black rings around them. I looked after my image I guess looking at the hair products etc. littering the bathroom sink. My hair is a mess and my stubble is more like a beard as I run a hand through my hair and over my jaw. I hate the person looking back at me. I will have to get over it as the old me is long gone.
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I am sitting here writing this in hospital sitting next to you. J, you have been missing for 5 days. When you came in, you were barely alive so someone out there was looking out for you bro. You have been in a coma month. I miss you so much. Please wake up J. It's not the same without you. I hate to see you like this, attached to every machine. Who am I going to Facebook bomb their Facebook live now? As yours were the best. Jon has been a mess since you arrived in hospital. Because he broke his back, they were not allowing him to come and visit you. The doctors were worried about his injuries. He demanded to be in the same room as you. He has always been the protective older brother. He had help from Donnie; they both can be very persuasive. Jon has been moved now and sleeping in bed next to yours. He has to be sedated as he keeps on trying to move to get you. I must have been very lucky as I got is a broken arm, a sprained ankle and a concussion. I must have been in the right place on the bus. I feel bad cos you are here in a coma. I am trying to lighten the mood here by making Donnie do donuts in the wheelchair as he broke both his legs in the crash. But Danny won't let me. I will get my way as he can't move as well with a broken arm and leg. While Jon is always sleeping he's trying to be the serious one ha.
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Some of the writing was a little smudgy as if Joe was crying. I still can't remember. I look at my watch and realize the time. Oh great, time for more therapy. Jon appears.
"Come on time to go". Oh great, I forgot I can't drive not allowed with PTSD.
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Back to life
Fanfiction(Completed) What happens when New Kids have a bus crash while on tour. Well it happened a year ago and one member isn't coping well with the aftermath of the accident. Jordan has now blocked out any memories of the crash including any memories of th...
