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Part 31 Christmas disaster

Christmas disaster 2017 😱🎄🎅

I nearly missed christmas with the whole family because I was drunk and hungover so I have been told. We had this massive fight in front of everyone including the kids. They say this was another downward spiral to my breakdown. All the problems started here when I got kicked out of my own home. THIS WAS WHEN MY LIFE BECOME NOTHING. IT MEANT NOTHING TO ME ANYMORE. Now that I remember , lets go back to that day....

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Everyone is sat at the table, adults at one and all children at other table. Well we have room at house as the living area is huge. My mom and wife were getting the food ready while everyone else was sat waiting. They waited and waited for me to turn up. I was elsewhere getting drunk. The problems I was having with the nightmares and pain during the cruise escalated into a really big problem I started to have a drinking problem again. I hadn't touched one in years but now I needed it to numb the pain of everything. 

I finally turned up 4 hours later, they did start eating as it was getting cold. They however waited for an hour or two. I stumbled into the room as if everything was ok. All in the front of the whole family included my boys.

"Here I am. I am so hungry and ready to eat". After that everything exploded. 

"Where the hell have you been? It's Christmas. You have missed dinner , you even missed the presents being given out. You missed everything. WHERE HAVE YOU BEEN JORDAN?"

"Nowhheerree" I slurred.

"Have you been drinking? You promised you would never again. Since the accident I stood by you even when you couldn't remember me, your wife through amnesia" I held into the back of Jon's chair to hold myself up "Are you even listening to me?". I just looked at her trying to stay on my feet. Everyone was watching us. When she noticed the boys looking even though they are old enough. It's never nice to see your parents fighting. Well one doing all the yelling while the other is just trying to stay his feet. She dragged me into the kitchen. You however do sober up very quickly when in an agrument and when things are being thrown at you all because you missed dinner. 

"I stood by you through all the problems with your solo career, your drinking the first time around and then when you were involved in the accident I stood by you while you tried to remember. While your moods changed from beimg angry to beimg tearful and crying at times. I stood by you when you were screaming at night through your nightmares. I had to hold the fort and make sure your sons were alright because their dad couldn't remember them. I let things slide when you are on the cruise or on tour". I just listened and let her do all the yelling as I started to feel nauseous now. The room was spinning. "I can't take it anymore Jordan. I don't know which Jordan is coming home to me each day". I just let Evelyn scream at me. "I think we need to separate I can't take the stress of it anymore. It hurting everyone". I say nothing. "Are you going to say anything?. Are you going to fight for us?. What are you thinking Jordan?". I think I am going to be sick. "Are you going to say anything Jordan?. I CAN'T  BELIEVE YOU ARE NOT SAYING ANYTHING. THAT YOU CAN'T EVEN THINK OF ANYTHING TO SAY. HOW ABOUT I AM SORRY I WAS LATE FOR CHRISTMAS DINNER?. SORRY I WASN'T THERE TO OPEN PRESENTS. SORRY THAT I AM DRUNK AGAIN". She went quiet and turned her back on me. I went to her stumbling a bit. She turned and hit me with a frying pan. You hear crack across my head where it connected with the side of my head. I went dizzy for a moment and lost my balance. Jon came running in when they heard a loud thud as I connected with the floor from the other room.

"I think she killed him" joked Joe.

"Don't joke. It not the time for it".

When Jon got into the kitchen. he saw me on the floor,  well crumbled into a heap on the floor. Blood was pouring from the wound on my head. I was out cold.

"Jon get your brother out of my sight. I don't what to ever see him again. He is not welcome here anymore. I can't do it anymore. I am tired of the stress. I can't take his lies, his sulking nor his mood swings anymore. He isn't my Jordan. He isn't the one I married anymore. He is different and I done trying to help him. I am going for a divorce. I can't do it anymore". That was last time I set foot in the family home. She got the house. I now live with Jon for the moment