Back to life

Part 17 Joe's journal

I think finally got some memories of me even though they are old ones. The doctor and psychiatrist think you remembering old memories from when you were a teenager it's like a comfort zone, a safe zone thing. That's why you haven't remembered me because I wasn't there at that time of your life.

Come to think of it I remember some of your words when you did remember of me. The little kid, who lived on the wrong side of Boston, called Joe. The one with blonde and big blue eyes the one who everyone thought was adorable and the one who stole my leads. I told you that you were called the lead singer of the group and you didn't believe me and just laughed at me. I will show you soon.

Later you were still awake when Donnie and Jenny came in bearing gifts of food. I am so hungry. I was tucking into my burger and cola.

"Here you go J. none of that shit hospital food now" replied Donnie giving you a brown paper bag "Burger from Wahlburgers".

"Thanks D" as you tuck into the burger like you never eaten before. I know hospital food sucks but really J. You could at least properly in public instead of eating like a hamster that hides food in his cheeks. I don't think you really knew where the burger came from. "Can I have another one?. I'm still hungry. The hospital food isn't nice at all".

"Nope. And anyway another one will make you sick. You only started eating properly a couple of weeks ago after being in a coma for a month. Your body needs to adjust".

"So Doritos, Cheetos and M&M's are out of the question too".

"Yep".

"What about normal food not junk?".

"I just feeling the need for junk food and snacks" you replied,

"Soft food and Jello like you have been having". You pouted at the comment. You closed your eyes saying you were tired. I know you were annoyed.

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I wonder when I remembered Joe again. I wondered how long I had amnesia. I don't remember. I have forgotten everything. I must have been a royal pain in the ass..... Wait they will tell you I still am.

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The day you remembered me was when you thought our second album just came out. I hate to be there when you think we just broke up/ disbanded. I don't want to be here for that.

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The day you totally remembered me was when you acted as if everything was OK. This took two weeks for you to remember me.

"Hey Joe" you replied sleepily.

"How are you feeling J?".

"OK. Bored so bored".

"Which Joe am I today?" I said playfully.

"Huh!".

"Just playing with you, J" as I gently bash your arm in a playful manner "It's just that I have been every different Joe until now. You have called me Joey for the last week which you haven't done in years". I sadly look at you. I know it's not your fault, you couldn't remember but it did hurt. It hurt a lot especially when you were chatting with the others. It hurt when you didn't acknowledge me at all the week you woke up. I don't want to say out loud my feeling to you in case I hurt you. So I guess writing them down so you can read them later without me here. I woke up from my daydream when you touched my arm.

"Joe" I look at you half propped up against the bed looking at me "How are you? How's the family?".

You are chatting to me like any other day since I have known you. Only thing you can't remember was the crash.

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I threw the journal across the room and covered my face with my hands. I can't believe it. Poor Joe.

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