We spent an hour just goofing around in the water all five of us. I totally forgot that I wasn't wearing a shirt. Well until Danny looked straight at me.
"I see why Jon is worried J. Now that you have your top off. I can see how bad your weight problem is?" replied Danny. He looked at me closely, you could really see my ribs sticking out , have a pot belly and look thin really thin. I normally look lean and toned but never skinny like I look now. He motioned me to follow him back to the house. We both sat at the kitchen table after we got changed out of wet clothes. In front of us were two bottles of water and notebook. I looked down at the notebook, not another journal to write in.
"That notebook J, Is going to record what you eat and drink every day as well as calories intake and exercise regime" replied Danny, really looking at my face seeing the grayish tint and sunken appearance around my face "I think you have an eating disorder as well as all the other problems you have J".
"No, I don't".
"Just look at you. Months ago you gained weight through the heavy drinking and over eating. Now you have gone the other way cos you thought you were fat and worried about your looks cos of your scars. But seriously Jordan you were fine the way you were. Please let me help you. Let all of us help you" I still look at him not saying anything. Danny has always been a health and fitness nut.
I slowly reply with an OK. I really fucked up my life. For months really since I woke up from my coma they have all been there for me especially Joe who I couldn't remember through my amnesia. Suddenly I have epiphany a light bulb goes in my head. I suddenly realize I have been a big ass.
" I need help. I WANT TO BE HELPED. I can't do this on my own. I want to be me again". I start to sob with so much emotion. I feel like a child, clinging onto Danny, crying my eyes out. The others all came into the kitchen. Donnie looks over at us.
"What you do, Danny. You broke Jordan" he replied pointing to me sobbing.
"Nothing he has just realized everything going on in his head and that he needs and wants help" said Danny looked over to Jon "A little help here Jon".
Jon came over and attempt to peel me off Danny. I moved and grabbed onto Jon, my brother instead. He took me upstairs and laid me on my bed. I let go of him and curl into a ball crying I'm sorry.
"I am so sorry for being an ass. Sorry for everything".
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