Begin Again

CHAPTER 11

"You haven't decorated it yet..."

Emma says as she takes a look around my room once she sits on the armchair by the door.

"Yeah... I still think about it. What I want to buy."

"We can go down town on Saturday and pick up a few things. I know a place that has amazing things. I have totally changed mine."

"I'd love that. It is a bit boring like that."

"It is. You can change your comforter and sheets too if you like."

"Really? That is great! I feel like I am in the hospital with this light blue color."

I say while laughing and Emma starts laughing too.

"It is settled then. We'll go shopping on Saturday morning."

"Do you get out on the weekends?"

"If you want. I don't leave every weekend. But for missing all weekend you need an application signed from your parents. On Saturdays we can go down town for shopping. But we have to be back by 8 o'clock. On Sundays there isn't a bus to go so we stay in. We are gathering on the living room or we go out when the weather is nice and warm. But don't expect that any time soon."

"Yeah... I can tell from the weather. It hasn't stop raining all these days."

"Unfortunately."

There is an awkward silence for a few seconds and I debate with myself whether or not I should tell her about Joe.

"I saw Joe today."

"Where?"

"In the library."

"And?"

"I didn't really talk to him. I recalled the things you told me the other day and I run away."

"Look Anne. He is great but it is the people around him that you... you won't like."

"Are you talking about Charlotte? Because I have seen that you aren't that close."

"Not everything is as it seems. She is nice. But if you do something to piss her off, she can change in a second."

"But why would me and her brother hanging out piss her off?"

"The question here is, do you want to hang out with him?"

I sit there in a silence for a minute. I don't know what to answer because I don't know the answer. I don't really know if I want to.

"I don't know. He seems like a nice guy. But I just see him as a potential friend. Nothing else."

"You know what? You should do what you want. Yeah you should... Forget about Charlotte. Forget about everything. If he shows you any kind of interest that you like just... just go for it."

I smile. But the truth is that I really don't know. I don't want to make up my mind about it. It is too soon.

"Do you want to watch a movie?"

I ask her and she nods positively.

It is 10 o'clock. Emma left half an hour ago and I just got out of the shower. I changed into my pajamas and I laid on my bed. I take my phone and set an alarm for tomorrow. I have to wake up tomorrow. Today Charlotte woke me up. Again.

Is it even possible? Charlotte to be... mean. I can't imagine her like that. She seems sweet all the times. I don't know what happened between her and Emma. I take a look at my room and I remember the book Joe gave me. I get up and grab it from my shelve. I lay again in my bed and get under the warm comforter. I open it and start reading feeling my eyes closing slowly.