Begin Again

CHAPTER 20

I am getting ready for class and I am super late. I put everything I need inside my bag and I put on my flats because there is no time for shoes laces. I slept late last night and I couldn't wake up today.

-Come in!

I say to the knock on my door and then I realize that I don't know who it is.

-Hey Anne.

Vanessa says and I feel relieved it's not Charlotte.

-Good morning Vanessa.

-This came for you.

She says handing me a box. It must be from mum.

-Thank you.

-Bye.

She says and not even looks at me. I get Charlotte being 'mad' but Vanessa why? Maybe she is to please her friend. I don't have time to think now. I even lost breakfast.

I rush downstairs and make quickly my way out to get to my class. The good news is that it's the nearest building.

I sit on a desk by the window and take out of my bag my books.

-Hey!

-Hey Mark.

-Why did you miss breakfast? Did you sleep late last night?

-Yeah. I couldn't wake up. I snoozed the alarm three times.

-Had a great time with Joe?

-The truth is that I did. He just makes me forget about everything else when we are together. I love that.

-Seems like someone is in love...

-Shh! What are you talking about. I am not.

-Okay. If you say so.

He says and turns to his bag to take out his books as the teacher gets in the class.

I suddenly feel weird in my stomach. What if Mark is right? What if I am in love? I don't... I haven't. It scares me. It really does.

I walk through the fields with Emma. I notice the trees. Their leaves have started to change colors. The air is crisp. It's sweater weather and I love it so much.

-Mark told me about your small talk this morning.

Emma says waking me up from my daydreaming.

-I thought he would. He thinks I am in love. With Joe.

-I know and the truth is that I think he is right. I haven't seen you in love before but you seem happy.

-Is that a sign of being in love?

-It is. But when I say you seem happy I don't mean the normal happiness. It's the kind of happiness that comes through love.

-Really? Is that a thing?

-I think it is.

-I don't know if I am. The only thing that I know is that I feel happy and excited every time I am near him. That's all I need right now. It is enough for me.

-I am happy for you. After everything that happened with Alex I think you deserve it.

Emma says and instantly Alex pops in my mind. I had totally forgot about him. And that is a good thing.