Begin Again

CHAPTER 18

                                                                

Dear diary,

These past few days have been...great! I actually can't believe I am having fun. Sunday was the absolute best. Scrolling down the London streets with Joe made me feel happy. Just happy. And the truth is that I know that being just happy for others may seem weird or normal but for me is all I need. I need my life to be normal. Joe seems like the perfect guy. He is sweet and polite and we have so much fun. After our trip we haven't really seen each other except from that time at dinner last night. I want to get to know him even more. About that kiss... I can't even begin to describe how amazing it was. How perfect the timing and the place was. It was like a scene from a movie and I was the lead actress in my own fairytale. We didn't talked about it. And the truth is that I don't intend on doing it right away. I just want to let things flow and see where they take me.

On the other hand, things are really good. I went to my first Fashion class and I really liked it. Today it's my second lesson and I can't wait. This week's theme is about how we can wear an outfit from day to night with some changes and Emma and I have an amazing idea to present.

Emma is great. We are together all the time and I feel like I can trust her. I never thought that I would find new friends so easily. I guess things aren't always as we thought they are. Not everyone is the same and I know for sure that I am starting to grow and change as a person.

Closing my diary I put it in my nightstand cabinet and I grab my things to go and have lunch. Emma has a class so I am meeting her straight to the fashion class afterwards.

-Hey Anne.

Vanessa says to me when I am closing my door to get downstairs.

-Hey! How are you?

-I am good. How are you?

-Great! Thanks.

-How was your trip on Sunday?

Charlotte asks when she comes out of the room in a weird tone. A tone I have never heard from her.

I froze when she says that. How does she...? That is a stupid question... Of course she knows.

-It was good. Now I have to go. See you.

-Yeah...

I practically run to go out. I don't feel like eating and I don't know where else to go. I want to call Emma but she has a class...

And then it hit me! The garden. Joe's garden.

I make my way there always looking behind me. I don't know why though. I just feel like I have a pair of eyes on my back.

Once I am there I get in and sit in the bench. I try to relax and breath. I let the scent of the wild roses go through my nose and then I let it out slowly. Emma was right. Charlotte isn't really as it seems. She seems mad and I know the reason. I knew it since the beginning. I ... I don't know...

I take my phone and call Joe. I have to talk to him. And I have to do it now.

-Hey...

-Hey Anne! How are you?

-Okay I guess. Do you have time? I need to talk to you.

-Sure. Where are you?

-Your garden.

-I am on my way.

-Thanks.

He says and hangs up. What do I tell him? Or maybe how? Should I just say it or should I just discuss what happened between us?