Begin Again

CHAPTER 36

I open my eyes and after a few seconds I realize where I am. I try to turn around but Joe is holding me into his arms and I can't move. I slowly try to take them off my waist without waking him up. 

Once I am up, I take a look at him sleeping. He is just perfect. But then again, the guilt that I feel doesn't let me cherish this moment. Last night I was able to forget about it and I tried to have a great time. And that is because I get the feeling that I after I tell him nothing will ever be the same.

-Anne?

I hear him say as I am making my way upstairs and I instantly go back downstairs.

-Here I am! Good morning.

I say and lay next to him.

-How did you sleep last night?

-Perfect. Just perfect.

-Me too. I think we need to make this a habit, you know.

He says and I can't hide my smile.

-Really? Like what?

-Like... you coming here as often as you can and sleeping over.

-We'll see about that.

I say and I pause. I try not to look at him and instead I take a look around the house. I am nervous. But this is something that I have to do. I need to tell him.

-Is everything alright?

He asks me and I look at him trying to smile a bit.

-I need to talk to you about something.

-Tell me.

-It is... I did something stupid. And I want you to know that I love you. You. Only you. No one else.

-You are scaring me. What did you do?

He asks and I try to find the right words but then the doorbell rings distracting me of my thoughts.

-Wait a second.

He says and goes towards the door. He looks through the peephole and then turns to look at me.

-Please tell me it's not your mother. Because that would be the most cliche thing ever.

-No. It is not my mother.

He says having a frustrated look on his face and then he opens the door to reveal Jack.

-What the hell are you doing here Jack?

-Good morning to you too.

Jack says and comes in.

-Morning Jack. We were kind of having a conversation here.

-Excuse me for coming to warn you.

Jack says and I get terrified because his serious face is on and you don't really get to see that every day.

-About what?

Joe asks him and he closes the door.

-Your mother is coming. She is at the dining hall with Charlotte. Emma is there so when she leaves, Emma will text us.

-Seriously? She can't find you here.

Joe says and I can see him start panicking.

-I know that. I have to go.

I say and start looking for my bag which I can't find.

-Listen! Anne you go upstairs and get dressed. Joe get all the sheets and blankets and stuff on the bedroom and I'll make the couch into a couch. Why didn't you just sleep on the bed?