Begin Again

CHAPTER 35

I am outside his house and I take a few seconds before knocking. I want to hug him as soon as he opens but there is something inside me that tells to just burst out the truth. Tell him what happened and then run. Run like the wind, because I feel so ashamed and because I know what his reaction will be.

He opens the door and doesn't say a word. He has a smile on his face and I just can't ruin that. I go towards him and I hug him very tight.

-Is everything alright?

He asks me.

-Everything is fine. I just missed you so much.

I say and go towards the fireplace to warm up my hands.

-You seem...strange.

-I am fine. Let's sit down.

I say and sit on the couch. He joins me and I lay on his lap looking at his eyes.

-So... tell me everything.

He says.

-You know almost everything since we talked every day.

-Almost?

-I talked with Eva. Twice.

-Really?

He asks, sounding extremely surprised.

-Yeah... The first time I practically yelled at her and left, but the second time was better. I told her what I wanted to tell her. And I asked her about Aria, about the things she had said behind my back.

-Was it what you expected?

-She used to tell Eva that I am not a good friend. That it's my fault that me and Aria aren't close, that I do whatever Eva says.

-I am so sorry you had to go through this alone.

He says to me and with that he proves me again how lucky I am to have him.

-It was something I had to do on my own. I feel really good that I did it.

I say and it is the truth.

-So... enough with that... What do you want to do? Whatever you want I am in for that.

-Whatever I want? Are you sure?

-I am.

He says and I try to think what I want.

-I got it. Do you have torches?

-Why do we need torches? What do you have in your mind? Are we robbing anyone?

-No... nothing illegal is happening tonight. Except from me not sleeping in my bedroom.

-Okay. I'll go get the torches. Anything else?

-Yeah! We need snacks. But I'll get those.

I say and go to the kitchen. I take a brown paper bag that is on the kitchen isle and I open the cabinets to find snacks. I grab a bag of gummy bears and two packs of Oreo's. I put them in the bag and go by the door to put on my coat.

-So... I got the torches. What's next?

-Candles and matches.

I say and he laughs.

-I think I know what you have in your mind.

-I am not revealing my plan.

-Alright. Open the bag.

He says and I do so and he places the candles and matches that he grabbed from the coffee table in the bag.

-Oh, I almost forgot. Leave your phone here.