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# 19

# 19

[Paul's]

Last week, it's our competition. Too busy to hold my phone and check my messages.

Puro training. Puro pagsipa ng bola. Puro stress. And it was really tiring, I swear. We want some quality time for ourselves yet, ipinagkakait talaga sa amin iyon.

Good thing Anna is too busy for the Student Council as well kaya naman okay lang na kung minsan hindi ko siya natatawagan. It's because masyado kaming focused sa pagttraining kaya naman hindi ako masyado nakakabalita pagdating sa school.

But then, palagi akong may kausap whenever I have free time.

Si Kath.

It's really good to have someone you can talk to.

Everytime na meron akong pagkakataon to check on my phone. No messages from Anna, pero kay Kath, natatambakan na ako.

Kaya naman every night before I go to bed, siya lang ang kausap ko.

Kung ano ano na yung mga pinag-uusapan namin. There's this time that we talked about her stuffed toy na emoji. She named it 'Troy'. For Pete's sake, that's weird but cute. She said that, Troy is the one she's crying to. Minsan nagpapanggap siya as Gabriella. And kung ano ano pa.

I told her also that I have a lucky charm. I have this keychain na bola ng football and lagi siyang nakasabit sa mga bag ko. It brings me luck, and joy as well.

And sa paguusap naming yon, hindi ko alam pero ang saya-saya ko kapag kausap ko siya.

She has this ambiance that will just make you smile. Will make you laugh.

And for Christ's sake, hindi ko na alam kung anong nangyayari sakin.

Tell me, this is wrong right? This is fucking wrong.

Every morning that I am here, I can't wait but to check her 'good morning's'. Her, meaning, it's Kath, not Anna.

If I saw some messages from Anna, I just jump into it and skip to Kath's.

Hindi ko alam pero kahit anong sabihin nating masaya ako kay Anna, which is really true, iba pa rin yung nadudulot saking saya ni Kath.

Shit, what a fuck boy am I.

I love Anna. I really do. She's the girl of my dream. We're suitable, actually, based on the others.

Yes, we have flaws. We have many problems. Remember the time that I was caught and put into that toxic jail booth with Kath, bago kami ma-lock dun, nag-away kami ni Anna. It's because, she's with the other guy members of the cheerleading squad.

I know that guy's intention. And he wants Anna. Dude, I can feel it. Di ako manhid. At mas lalong hindi ako tanga makakita ng tingin na may halong kagustuhan sa tingin na walang halong malisya.

She's responsible for Anna. Siya yung laging naglilift sa kanya and every practice, whenever there's a fail routine, oh fuck, kita ko sa mga galaw ng kamay niya na, sinasadyang niyang dumaplis yon sa kung saan mang bahagi ng katawan ni Anna.

I told her that and yet, there's this 'manhid' girl of mine defending that shit while saying it's also part of the routine. Oh please, talking about the fact of being professional, hindi mo kailangang humipo sa legs kung hindi naman kinakailangan. Pero wala. Ako pa rin yung mali sa paningin ni Anna.

She said that I am going overboard. Kasalanan ko bang concerned ako sa girlfriend ko? Kasalanan ko bang magpigil mambugbog ng lalaki dahil sa ginagawa niya sa girlfriend ko? Kasalanan ko bang maalibadbaran dahil sa nakikita ko? Kasalanan ko bang protektahan yung taong mahal ko?