Fixing the Broken Compass ‖ Seventeen Tagalog fan fiction

Chapter twelve

Chapter twelve: first, second, and the broken compass

(Y/n) 's POV

"Honey...." tawag ng malambing na boses sa akin.

Lintek na yan ang sarap pa ng tulog ko eh!

"Honey wake up na... aalis pa tayo." Si Jeonghan.

"Mamaya na lang. O kaya bukas. Sa makalawa. Inaantok pa ako eh" tinatamad akong sumagot sa kanya at nagtalukbong.

"Honey kapag bukas o sa makalawa aabsent ka ul~"

"Eto na nga eh di ba?" Padabog kong sabi.

"Good morning honey" sabi niya sa akin. He gave me a swewt smile, so am I.

Nag-ayos na ako since nakaayos na siya. Ang aga oa sheyt. 9 pa lang eh.

Tignan mo yung lalaking yun, pagpapahingahin ako pero kung makagising sa akin alas otso.

"Hi noona!" Misiglang bati ni Jun.

And here they go again. Fake.

"Heyow wassup!" Sigaw ko. Umupos muna ako sa mesa since gutom na naman ako.

"Noona did you sleep well?" Tanong ni Vernon.

"Yes of course. Lagi naman maayos tulog ko eh?" Tumango lang siya.

"Hindi ka ba nagising or what? Tanong ni Minghao.

I guess they saw me last night.

Well I don't care if they saw me. I can lie about it just the way they are doing.

"Ne. Mga 30 minutes na  akong tulog nun. Nagutom ako bigla eh. Kaya ang ginawa ko sinukbit ko yung earphones sa tenga ko bago ako bumaba." O not totally I lied.

"Wala kang narinig?" Tanong ni Jihoon

"Maliban sa kanta na pinakikinggan ko wala na." Sabi ko.

They sigh as a relief.

"Bakit?"

"Wala noona! Eat well?" Sigaw ni Seungkwan.

Sorry kids pero hindi ko muna pwedeng sabihin na alam ko. And I don't want to ask you kung ano man yun.

I'll choose to look for the answers by myself. Then you'll answer the answer.

*/*/*

Lumabas na ako sa room with smiles. Jeonghan is waiting there nervously.

"Ano daw?"

"I'm completely fine honey. Don't worry." sabi ko sa kanya.

"She's right Mr. Yoon. Ilayo niyo lqng yang batang yan sa mga stress. Ir should I say, lessen lang ang stress."

"I will doc. Siya lang naman tong makulit eh." Tumango na si doc at pumasok ulit sa office.

"Where do you want to go?" Tanong ni Jeonghan sa akin.

"Balik ka muna sa dorm. Susunod ako." Utos ko sa kanya.

"What!? No. No. unless you'll come with me or I'll come with you." Ganyan naman siya lagi eh.

He's protecting me. Lalo na if I faint. He'll keep my secrets, as long as I comand him. He'll help me with my problems even if I don't say so. And... He'll love me even if I loved Seungcheol more than him.

Alam namin yun. Both of us. Hindi mo ako masisi. S. Coups is my first love. My first boyfriend. My first kiss. And my first heart break. Jeonghan is my seconds. And somehow, my first.

Aaminin ko nung simula nahihirapan ako. Once na akong sinaktan. But I realized that time, Jeonghan us what I need. A fruend, lover, brother, and caretaker. Yet both of us know, I'm happier those times when I'm with Seungcheol.

I admit, gusto kong magkaayos kami ni S. Coups kasama ng pagkaayos ng seventeen. I'm leaving this freaking world anytime soon. I have so many reasons to fight, byt there's one reason why I should give up. The end is near.

Yet I don't deserve to leave. But It's my task. Everyone will leave. Not now, but soon.

And once I'm gone, ayokong may makaalam. Gusto kong makalimutan nila ako. Gusto kong mawala ako na parang bula. Pero hindi pa yun ngayon. Madami pang pagdadaanan tong mga gusto ko. May aayusin pa ako. And I know in the end,  worth it lahat ng paghihirap ko.

Galit ako sa seventeen. Nagawa nilang sirain ang pagkakaibigan nila na iningatan naming lahat for years.

Galit ako sa sarili ko for leaving them and doing nothing noong mga panahong magulo sila.

But what I hate the most is this sick I'm suffering since 5 and a half years from now.

Aghh! I don't want to talk about it anymore! Ayoko na!

"We're back honey." Sabi ni Jeonghan.

Nasa pledis entertainment na kami ngayon. Gaya nga ng napag-usapan, I'll be with them.

We entered the room. Tahimik sila. Kahit nandito ako. Tahimik sila.

What do I expect right?

They're a broken compass.

They're just a broken compass.

Like what they said last night, wala nang patutunguhan to.

But I promise, there will be a first and second, pero dapat walang broken compass dito.

*/*/*/*/*/*/*/*/*/*/*/*/*/*/*/*/*/*/*/*/*/*/*/

Author's note: Mianhae! Wala talaga akong maisip ngayon! Grabeng project kase sa school eh!

Sorry!