I'm letting you go...

You can't lose what you never had....

We love each other and you were deeply in love with me. That’s what your father believes.

And even if we say NO, they will always have ways to make us agree. I am not only doing this for myself.

Hindi lang ikaw ang nahihirapan. Have you ever felt hiding in the dark just to find real happiness? I can’t even tell the world I love her. Kasi I have to think of the people around me. I have thousands of employees na sa kumpanya lang umaasa. Cause honestly, hindi kasing ganda ng estado nang kumpanya ninyo ang business namin ngayon. And I must admit, I am asking you a big favour. Your dad and my father will never change their mind. This is the only way we could say NO in a different way.

We will have a true wedding that will only be valid for six months.

Montemayor’s Unite (Her Dad’s Hotel & Resort) and our company was set to merge in three months.

We need to be couples before the merging. We don’t have any choice. I know you value your late Mother’s properties. Without this marriage, there is no way we can have what we deserve to have.

Paulit-ulit niyang naririnig ang sinabi ng lalake kani-kanina lang. Maybe he is right. This is the only way she could prove to her Dad that he can’t hold her forever and decide for her future.

Binuksan ni Paul ang radio ng kanyang kotse upang mabasag ang namumutawing katahimikan.

I don’t care if you think I’m crazy,

It doesn’t matter if it turns out bad,

I’ve got no fear of losing you,

You can’t lose what you never had……. (Westlife band music)

(Silence…….)

Ito ang musikang nagmumula sa radio. May kung anung kirot siyang naramdaman sa kanyang dibdib.

Ito ang masakit na katotohanan na kailangan niyang tanggapin. Na ang lahat ng nangyari ay isang matamis na panaginip lamang na patuloy niyang ninanamnam ngayon ang pait. She's upset, ramdam niyang lahat ng bagay sa paligid niya ay puro kasinungalingan.

Pinilit niyang magkunwaring tulog sa biyahe. Hindi niya alam kung anu ba ang dapat niyang gawing pasya.

Inayos niya ang sarili ng malapit na siya nitong maihatid sa kanila.

“I will decide after this week. I will take a leave for tomorrow. Think of any reason in case my father ask you why. I am not in a mood to think.” Bumaba ito ng kotse at tuloy-tuloy nang pumasok sa gate.

Pinilit nitong maging masaya bago pumasok nang kanilang bahay.

Isang buong araw siyang hindi lumabas mula sa kanyang kuwarto. Ayaw din nitong magpaistorbo kahit kanino. Her dad and family relatives doesn't worry about it. Maaaring iniisip ng mga ito na kailangan niyang mapag-isa to think about that huge decision she just made.

"You were my biggest dream. All my life, I never had any chance to say what I mean. Napakaliit ng tingin sakin ng papa mo! I always need to walk blind folded by you and your family. Hindi paba yun sapat Cynthia?"l It's the crying voice of her father that has awaken her.

"Alfonso, I'm sorry.. I need to see him, even just to see him. Kahit minsan lang alfonso. Please..." It's her mother crying too. They are fighting again.

"Kung aalis ka, wala ka ng babalikan!"  Sigaw ng kanyang ama.

Nakarinig siya ng pagharurut ng sasakyan sa labas. Sumilip siya ng bintana at nakita niya ang kanyang mama paalis.

It's Sunday morning. She needs to wake-up early to go to church with her mother. Someone is knocking on the door. It's a police,

She finds herself on a hospital together with her father. Her father begun to cry again. It's her Mom, Tumakbo ito papasok sa emergency room. Gusto niyang makita ito ngunit pinigil siya ng mga nurse habang ang kanyang ama naman ay patuloy parin ang pag-iyak.

It was a car accident...

Her mom died that night. 

"Dad! mom needs help! come on! I need to see her! she'll be fine right?" Hinihila nito ang kanyang ama, she's only 10 years old but she do understand what's happening.

"Andrea, stop.. your mom is gone.." Niyakap siya ng kanyang ama.

"No! No! Your lying! No! she's not!........"

Pinagpapawisan si Andrea habang paulit-ulit niya itong sinisigaw. Nagising siyang umiiyak at takot na takot. Isa nanamang panaginip mula sa anino ng kanyang kahapon. 

She was just 10 years old, what she remember were just shadows. But all the pain, loneliness and agony of the past were just so clear that she can't go away from it...