To say the last two days was an adjustment , would be an understatement. It's been... weird .
First of it takes a lot to learn how to be a mother , to a newborn nonetheless. I'm still figuring out what each cry means and when what usually happens. It's tough, I won't lie.
And being sleep deprived is no joke. I thought before that I was a night owl but now , being up every 10 min at night , I'm rethinking my previous statement .
And above that I have Austin. I know he's trying to change , to adjust to this new mentality , but I wish it would happen faster . I really need some help , I NEED a husband . I hate that I said that , but I mean it . I don't know how long I can keep fighting this battle alone . I really need someone by my side . Someone to encourage me to keep on going , to tell me it's going to be okay . I really need that right now .
But if only one of those wishes could be granted I would hope it to be Austin finally spending some time with Arabella . It's been 6 days since she's been born . Almost a week and she still hasn't met her father. Bonded with him . So if only one of my wishes could be granted this would be it .
But that just happens in fairytales right ?
This is real life . No genie or magical being granting my wishes . Who am I even kidding ?
I slowly shut her door behind me -not to wake her up yet - tip toeing downstairs for some breakfast. It's 10 so by now I'm alone at the house . Austin usually leaves for work at about 7 . This is usually the time I cherish the most. Me time .
It's when I spoil myself with a nice breakfast while Bella sleeps . I then watch either a movie or a series on netflix until 11 ish , when it's time to wake her up for her next feeding and to dress her . She's still adjusting to our routine so I'm kind of all over the place .
I pour the rest of the frozen berries into my bowl with yogurt and add some honey , licking the drop I spilt off my fingertip .
"Delicious. " I cooed at my delicious creation .
"Can I have some ? "
I Jumped at Austin's sudden voice behind me .
I thought he left already .
I turned around - kind of confused more like surprised to be honest - seeing him stand there with a cheeky grin on his face .
Yup he just saw me jump . Probably thinks I'm a total weirdo and a scaredy cat . So basically nothing he didn't already know yet .
"Um , sure . But shouldn't you have left for work already ? "
"Maybe, but you know I'm kind of the boss so I can do what I want . "
"Right . " I nodded in agreement , as I turned around getting another bowl from the cupboard.
"I'm here for you. "
"What? " his words totally caught me off guard, I almost dropped the bowl.
But I mean what does he mean by that ? Is he going to take me away again? kill me this time ?
I watched as he stepped closer to me , taking slow , big strides towards me , making my heart beat faster with each step he took .
I hate that he makes me feel this way !
"I said , I'm here for you . Well you and the baby but mostly you . I'm here to make things right . "
"W-what does that mean ? "
Another step closer . We were now a few inches apart . I tried to move backwards only resulting in bumping against the countertop . There's no way I can get away. It felt strange, and I don't know if I liked it yet .
"It means , I'll be working from my office till things with you and me are sorted . Till you have a smile on your face everyday , because of me . Till you feel like this is your home .Till I am your home . "
I lightly pushed him away with my hand , not far , but far enough to give me room to breath and take all this in.
"But Austin , that can take a while till I feel safe again . Till this is alright . Till we're alright . I can't let you do this ."
He stepped closer , to his previous stance.
"But I want to . No matter how long it takes "
He leaned closer as I clenched my eyes close , sucking in a sharp breath, not knowing what's going to happen next .
I stood stiff as I felt his warm lips peck my cheek softly letting it linger for a bit before he pulled away , leaving tingles behind in it's place.
"Until you're ready . I'll wait . " he said then grabbed an apple from the counter , going back to his office.
I stood frozen in my spot , shocked , surpised , confused at what happened .
My heart is telling me that this is what I've always wanted . For him to show me this kind of affection. For us to really get a chance to love eachother .
But my head told me this was all a trap . A mind game . Another way for him to win my trust before using it against me again .
At this moment I'm stunned . I have no idea what to do next , and the internal battle between my heart and my head isn't making this any easier .
A cry echoing through the halls brings me back to reality. I've never been so glad to hear her cries .It brings me to the realization that I still have her . I have a distraction. A reason to keep going . A little person relying on me to be strong .
I have to keep going. I can't give up . Not now , not ever .
I'll just have to roll with whatever life throughs my way .
I'll give Austin a chance . I'll give us a chance . And if in some way he uses that against me I know one thing ; I'll come out of it stronger than before .
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Unfinished Business
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