My Seductive Ex-Husband ( Complete ) [ Under Editing ]

CHAPTER XXXVIIII - Launching pt. 2

CHAPTER XXXVIIII.

( A/N: We need tissue, mga kapatid. Kahit ako ay naiyak sa part na 'to. Naka-draft palang sa utak ko ang iniyakan ko na.😂 Hindi siguro maiiyak yung iba pero naiyak talaga ako. HAHA. Isama mo pa yung Titanic na ngayon ko lang napanood. Saket sa lungs. )

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"HON, I'M SORRY. I'M VERY MUCH GUILTY." Narinig kong aniya pero nanatili akong nakapikit. I'm faking my sleep, and I'm good at that. I'm good in faking my emotions. "Sorry, sorry, sorry. I will never stop asking forgiveness until you forgive me." Hinigpitan niya ang pagkakayakap saakin at hinalikan ang noo ko. We had a fight last night, so I don't know why we end up sleeping in just one bed. Maybe because my body almost breakdown kaya wala na akong lakas para palayasin siya mula dito sa Cabin ko. "I'm guilty, but I never find another woman except you. You we're the one, before and now. Our friends and God knows it." Aniya.

Talagang dinamay ng gagong 'to ang Diyos.

Kahit nangangalay na ako ay nanatili akong nakapikit at nakikinig lang sakanya.

"Sa loob ng limang taon na wala ka, halos mamatay ako. But, I thank God that I survived. Walang segundo, minuto, oras, araw, buwan, at taon na hindi kita inisip. Everytime I travel, I always think that you're at my side, or, you're just at our house and you're waiting for me to come home. It sounds crazy, but It's true. Umaasa ako na pag-uwi ko, nasa labas ka ng bahay, hinihintay ako, at papasalubungan kita ng matamis na halik at mainit na yakap." Aniya ulit. Even though, the fact that you said that you're guilty will not change. Manloloko, babaero. T'ngina. Ang sakit. "Kahit hindi ka pa gising, magkukuwento ako sayo.
About my life while you're gone at my side." Aniya. Kahit hindi ko tignan ay ramdam kong nagpunas siya ng luha. He's crying.  "Alam mo ba, Hon? Muntik na akong mabaliw. You're the reason and you're also the cure. Noong umalis ka, halos mabaliw ako. For almost a year, alak na ang naging tubig ko. Because I thought drinking it would lessen the pain, but I would just wake up and would realized that I had a messy life. Tuwing nalalasing ako, hinahayaan lang ako ng mga gunggong na yun dahil ayaw nilang pakialaman ako. Kung saan-saan ako nagigising tuwing nalalasing ako. Minsan sa bar, minsan sa kotse ko, minsan naman ay sa tabi ng kalsada. Sa bahay lang natin ang bagsak ko kapag inuuwi ako ng mga gunggong. Everyday, that's my routine. I almost forgot that I'm running a company of mine, a company of us.  Araw-araw akong umuuwi na may pasa sa mukha dahil sa pakikipagbasag-ulo. Talo ko pa noon ang mga teenager na nakikipag-away sa kanto. Araw-araw din ay madami akong natatanggal na mga empleyado sa kompanya dahil sa madaling uminit ang ulo ko. Many of my employees resigned because of it. Dahil sa buhay kong ganoon araw-araw ay nasanay na din ako, hindi ko na iniinda ang sakit, mararamdaman ko nalang ang sakit kapag magising ang diwa ko. Our friends can't help me because I didn't tell them what happened, even Mom, Dad, Mommy, and Daddy, they didn't know. I don't want them to know, either." Mahabang kwento niya.

I'm shocked. H-He experience all of t-those? H-He really did?

"T-Two years had passed, they thought that I'm okay because I'm not short tempered anymore, but there's one thing they didn't know. I-I'm secretly seeing a p-psychiatrist.. Funny right? But it's true. Depression is killing me that I want to end my life. Too much sadness is consuming me. Pero naisip ko, sino ang sasalubong sayo kapag bumalik ka na? So, I tried to fight that depression, nilabanan ko ito hanggang sa kaya ko. Psychiatrist will not help, that's what I thought. But, I thank God that my psychiatrist helped me. She was able to turn back my senses into normal. I don't want them to know. Dahil gusto ko itong sarilihin. Ayokong maging pabigat sa iba kaya mag-isa ko itong nilabanan. I even went to some therapy for the brain.." mahabang kwento niya. He's crying loud. I can hear his sobs.

I was just listening, and I cannot believe. He's seeing a psychiatrist for almost a year..While me, I admit that I experienced hell.. but his, was worst hell. I didn't know, hindi ko alam. Atleast ako, may mga taong nag-stay sa tabi ko, pero siya.. there were no one. His only companion is his self. I pity him, I really do. Yes, he admit the fact that he's guilty, pero mas naguiguilty ako. Dapat ba ay hindi ako umalis? Pero nasaktan ako, eh.

"That time you saw me in our b-bed, I really can't remember anything.. Nagising lang ang diwa ko nang marinig ko ang boses mo noon.. I don't know if it's just me, but, I can blurry see an image of a girl.. pero malayo sa imahe ng babae na nakita mo sa k-kama natin.. Noong pumasok ako sa loob ng bahay natin, ibang babae talaga ang nakita ko, I think she was the one who put something on my drink so I got drunk.. pero nang makita kong si S-Seara iyon.. I got shock, kasi hindi talaga siya yung nakita ko.." kwento ulit niya.

Mariin kong pinikit ang mga mata ko at kumuyom ang kamao ko. Sino ba itong sinusubukang siraan kami? Dahil sakanya, madaming buhay ang naapektuhan. Ako, si Zhayden, mga magulang namin, mga kaibigan, at mga taong kakilala namin.

I'm not pretty sure, but, I believe that Seara, his former secretary is innocent in this case. Someone is trying to destroy our relationship. Soemone is giving me death threats. Someone is destroying my friend's relationship. Are they one person? If yes, what was her purpose? Why is she doing it?

I'm going to catch who ever you are. I'll make sure of that.

"Hon.. please wake up. Please believe me.. please.. I'm begging.." aniya.

He caress my cheeks and brush my hair. He's looking at me, I can feel it.

Nagulat siya nang dahan-dahan kong  imulat ang mga mata ko."Yes. I'm awake, and I believe you." Ani ko habang diretsong nakatingin sa mata niya.

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