Shawn Mendes x Reader Imagines

Always

I woke up with a start, just like every other morning. I subconsciously reached my hand across the bed, feeling for the warmth of Shawn's body, knowing it wouldn't be there. It hadn't been for almost a month.

I hadn't left the much house, I hadn't eaten a lot, I didn't bother looking in the mirror or about my appearance and I had at least one breakdown daily.

I walked downstairs and sat on the couch, I did this often, when I was sad. The phone rang, but I ignored it, knowing it would be someone trying to get me out the house and go out socializing, but I wasn't ready. Once it stopped, the house sounded deathly silent.

I glanced over at the clock hanging on the wall. It was still early, so I decided it would be safe to go for a drive without seeing any familiar faces. I grabbed my keys and sneaked out the house and into my car.

I didn't know where I was going until I caught the name of the street I turned down, right at the last moment. It was where Shawn and I first met, a quiet part of town right next to a small fountain. I parked my car and hopped out, slowly making my way to a bench next to the fountain and sat down.

Soon I was trapped in my old world, reliving that night that broke me. It felt as if that night had taken half my soul with it.

*flashback*

Shawn and I were on our way home from a party. We had both drank, but we thought it would be fine as we'd only had a couple drinks.

We were on the main road. Shawn had told me something that made me laugh, and he turned over to look at me. "I love your laugh." He smiled. "I love you." I smiled back at him and grabbed his free hand. He looked down at my hand as I looked back at the road. "Shawn, break!!" I screamed as we sped toward the back of another car. But it was too late. There was a crash. The windscreen broke and the sound of my scream and Shawn's combined was all I could hear. Then it felt as if the world stopped. Shawn's hand was still holding mine.

There was a ringing in my ears and I couldn't breath properly, only taking in short gasps. I looked over at Shawn. I took my free hand and covered it over my mouth, tears welling in my eyes and spilling down my cheeks. Shawn's hand was still holding mine, but there was no strength in it, his grip was lifeless.

*end of flashback*

I wiped a hand over my face and felt the wet tears. I took a shaky breath, and pulled myself out of the bench and to the edge of the fountain. I looked at my sad reflection and cupped my hands together to bring some water to my face and splash it. When I looked back at the water, I was not alone.

I saw Shawn, as clear as day, standing next to my reflection in the water. I laughed out of pure shock. He smiled. "I love your laugh. I love you. Stay strong, (y/n), I'll always be with you."

"I love you too ,Shawn." I whispered, tears slipping down my cheeks as I smiled at him. I reached out to touch his reflection, craving his touch, but the water rippled and he was gone. I looked at my side. I was alone again, but not really. Shawn would be with me, always.

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(A/n) Hi...I'm still alive. I'm so sorry for being inactive for so long, but I've been through a lot this past month, but now I'll try update more often. I'm in the middle of exams at the moment, but I can still sort out a chapter or two now and then. Thank you for being so patient, love you guys. Also, this book has 12k reads?! Mind blowing