Puppy dog eyes

chapter ● 41

^^that picture made me start crying again
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Jonahs POV

I fell asleep with my head leaning on sawyer. Evie lay peacefully in between my legs, hugging my thigh. I had been asleep for a few hours I think but always remained semi-conscious. I was listening for sawyer. If he wasn't gonna make it the night then I had to make sure he didn't spend his last few moments alone.

I heard him start to whimper, followed by a few high pitched whines. He rolled onto his side and sounded as though he was crying. Something was wrong.

I shook evie awake.
"Evie i-its sawyer. Get my d-dad"
Evie ran upstairs to my parents room and soon returned with them.
I was sobbing into sawyer as he licked my tears away.

My dad ran downstairs. My mom, sisters and girlfriend running behind him. He shoves me out of the way before scooping up sawyer and rushing him to the car.

"Everyone stay here okay? I'm taking him to the vet."
"But dad! You sai-"
"Yes Svea I know what I said!"
"Can I at least say goodbye?!"
"Come on then. You'll have to be quick though. All of you come on."

Me and evie hang back as we had been with him all night. She pulls me into her and strokes my hair.

"Hey babyboy it'll be okay. Come on jojo don't cry..." she sniffed up some more of her own tears before breaking.

"He brought you to me, evie. He's the reason I'm happy. He's the reason for my future."
"I know bubs I know"

Just then my mom came over to us.
"You two can go see him again. Everyone else has had their turn. Jonah? Be easy on svea."
"I know mom, I will."

We go say goodbye as he lays in the backseat of tims car. I go to give him a hug when his body starts shaking. His eyes roll back and he loses control of his entire body.

"DAD! HE'S SEIZING!" Tears stream as I mumble curse words under my breathe. This can't be happening. He's strong. He's a warrior.

"Oh shit! Don't hold him down!! That's the worst thing you could do!" I take note and step away from him. Leaving his pulsing body on the back seat of the car.

"Okay he's stopped now but he won't open his eyes!"

"Check for a pulse jonah!"

I put my hand on his chest and feel it going up and down. Slowly. But he's breathing.

"He's breathing but barely!"
My dad appeared at the side of me and pulled me into a hug.
"As long as he holds on until I get him to the vet, he could still be okay"
"But they're gonna put him down!"
"Maybe not. This isn't what happened the last two times. I don't think this is because of his stomach flipping."

My dad pulls me into a hug.
"You'll be okay son. It's okay to feel hurt. I'm glad you're letting yourself be vulnerable around us again. I haven't properly known how you felt since you were 11 or so. I was always so scared you needed help and I was oblivious."
"I'm okay dad. Really. Just make sure it's peaceful. If it had to happen. Tell him I love him please and give him a scratch behind the ears for me."
"I will Jo. I will."

He pats me on the back and gets in the car. Looking back at sawyer one last time before driving to the vet.

"I love you sawyer. Always."
Evie holds my hand, giving it a squeeze as svea hugs my side and Esther wraps an arm around my shoulders.

"You'll be okay Jo. I promise." I give Esther a smile before we all walk back into the house. Hoping that sooner or later, my dad will return. A healthy sawyer by his side. But dreams can't always come true...