Fucking Sucked

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Brynn sipped some coffee as she sat in her and Joe's kitchen, staring at the photo album in front of her

Jon would be here soon just to chill. She and Jon hadn't really seen alot of each other recently and so they were trying to fix that

She was staring at a photo of her and her brother when the front door opened and she looked up to see Jon shrug off his leather jacket and throw his keys in the dish. He walked over to her and kissed her forehead and sometimes she wondered how much they looked like a couple

"Hey B," Jon greeted as he walked over to the coffee pot and threw some into a mug

She smiled as he came back to sit in front of her and he returned the smile before sipping his own coffee

"So I wanted to talk to you about some stuff," she said

"Was Colby busy?" He asked jokingly but Brynn just looked away exhaustedly and Jon cleared his throat

"Sorry, so what's up?" He asked and looked at her and she sighed

"You and I are seriously drifting apart and I don't like it. We've been best friends for so long, it'll be 11 years soon, and we're drifting apart." She admitted and Jon sighed

"Well actually, I had something planned for the 11 years, I wanted it to be a surprise but I'll keep it on a down low," he said and she smiled at him in admiration, Jon was an actual gem

"Was that it? Or did you have something else?" He asked, taking another sip of coffee

"I'm thinking about ending things with Joe," she told him and he did a spit take and Brynn was wide eyed as he began coughing and hitting his chest

"You're fucking kidding," he said after he finished choking and she sighed and looked away

"I honestly wish I was," she replied and he looked at her

"We haven't been intimate in nearly a month, there was a time when we couldn't keep our hands off each other but when he touches me I feel like throwing up, I feel so dirty," she admitted

"Because he's still married," he said for her and she nodded and Jon sighed

"I just feel like I'm sharing him, even though like he doesn't want anything to do with Gal, it's just like this is your man, he loves you, you love him, y'all want a future together, but he's married." She said and Jon nodded, seeing where she was coming from

"I just don't know what to do, I wanna be with him for as long as he'll have me but because of that jackass imposter, I've been with a married man for 3 years and I didn't even know." Brynn stated in agony and Jon felt his own heart breaking

"You need to tell Joe how you're feeling," Jon advised and she shook her head

"I don't wanna hurt him Jon, I promised we'd work everything out," she said in retaliation and Jon bit his lip

"B, you can't hide this shit. Don't you think he'll start wondering why you guys haven't had sex in a while? He'll blame himself," he said and Brynn wiped her cheeks

"He'll blame himself for our breakup if I tell him," she said in return and Jon shook his head

"Look, I get that you're scared and you're worried, but you need to tell Joe about the way you're feeling. This is not something you can just keep bottled up, he needs to know how this makes you feel, you can't leave him in the dark like this." Jon told her and she sniffled and wiped under her nose

"I hate this." She said shaking her head

"I know," Jon replied and they made eye contact

Later when Jon left, Brynn was in their bedroom, staring at a picture of her and Joe. He was still at work so she had the house to herself for awhile

She was looking at the picture with a smile on her face

Could she really ruin everything she had built with this man? She felt so many emotions at once

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Could she really ruin everything she had built with this man? She felt so many emotions at once. She felt like she was letting him down, but at the same time, if she wasn't happy then what's the point? Relationships were a two way street, and if she wasn't happy, she knew Joe wasn't happy.

This would hurt her forever but right now, she could see no other option, this was something they couldn't just talk through. This was harder than that and the situation fucking sucked

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I also willed myself to update because I know alot of people like this book and I really hate letting y'all down so I pushed myself to update and will keep doing just that💯💎

~Itchweed🙏🏽🔥

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