Turning Point (A Reaching Out Novel)

One Hundred Fourteen

We aren't exactly the type of arranged marriage couples. He fell immediately, I fell after. We only have occasional fights, and what if we were that type of movie marriages.
What if I never came back from my trip in the US? What if I stayed in the hiding, would that change anything?
Or what if I did run away, but came back but then he didn't receive me as warmly as he did a few years ago? What if I was falling head over heels over him and he was just not having it?
What is he was cold towards me?
Would he still end up cheating on me?
I blinked and then looked at Zachary who was asleep. I would have gone on my phone but he might be tracking it and I really wanted to be alone right now, so I turned it off.
I couldn't breathe in our house, so I went out for a breather, with my son.
My son who has no idea what the hell is going on, my son who is gonna get caught in the middle of this.
I can't help but think about some what ifs, seriously. I feel like I have given him all the love in the world and yet here I am getting all the crap, I don't really deserve this. Unless, is this the crap that I am getting for being shot and then having post-partum depression?
I closed my eyes to breathe, as of 8:01am, I am in hiding.
I have two phones, the one that's registerd under my name and the other one, this may sound odd but I'm using my mother's number. And now, Brad is calling me through that number.
"Hello?" I said
"He just called me." He said
"Oh." I said
"Where are you?"
"Relax, I'm not missing."
"You're not gonna tell me where you are?"
"No, so that you don't have to lie for me."
"You have to talk to him."
"I do. But not now, I need to breathe. I need space."
"I think he is respecting that bu-"
"But what?"
"Just don't forget that you are a royal now and-"
"How could I forget?"
He was silent for a while.
"Has the Palace released a statement yet?" I said
"No, uh I think Harry is on the verge of explaining to everybody." He said
"He won't be able to find me."
"Where are you exactly?"
"It would be best if you didn't know, he can call you anytime and you'd probably break."
"Hey, have some faith in me sister."
I sighed.
"No, I won't break. Zachary and I are safe and that's what matters."
"He could track your phone though."
"I have two phones remember?"
"And probably the main one is turned off and you still can't stop me from-"
"Oh, blackmailing. Since when are you on his side?"
"I'm not, it's just that I think you should talk to him, to clear out any misconceptions between you two and for my nephew's sake."
"Misconceptions? Bradford, the news is out there. And with the internet, we're probably in there too. The whole world knows that Harry probably has another kid. From a starlet." I said
"Do you think he can do that to you? With what you have gone through? And what you two have gone through?"
"Maybe he got bored with me already? Have I been too much of a mother?"
"What, you think it's about sex-"
"No, I don't think so, we have it all the time-"
"Then-"
"I even flew to New York on New Year's Eve just to see him."
"You did that?"
"Yes and that. But we were away from each other for quite some time and I don't really have an idea what did he do during the missing time."
"Okay, we both know how he loves you and Zachary, do you think he can do that to you two?"
"Honestly? No. I'm pretty sure we talked about not making our son go through divorce and cheating." I said
"There you go. You may need your space now but you gotta at least give him a chance to explain. Although, sure the world probably knows about the status of your marriage now and you two have to clear this out. And he's probably your epic love or something-"
"Oh my god, I have to have girlfriends."
"Well, you got me. Uh, Lou stop doing that!" I looked at Zach, who was sound asleep, then I realized that we have grown up already. Married with kids, I mean who knew? Decades ago we were just twins.
"No, Louis! Uh, sis I have to go, Louis has hand in a Nutella bottle." He said
I smiled and said, "Talk to you later. But take a photo of it!"
I looked at my son, who was adorably asleep. He's gotten a bit cheeky and I want to squeeze him so much. His hair is growing, my blond boy. His eye color might reflect mine but it's pretty much shaped like Harry's. His nose reflects Harry's but boy's got my lips.
I grabbed my other phone that's turned off, and debated whether should I turn it on or keep it off, and well for the sake of having space, I decided to keep it turned off.
I am in some place where nobody knows that I know of it.
I wish my mother was still around, she might not know what to do but at least I could get to talk to her about this.
I do pray that it's not true, I won't let Zach get hurt because of this and I don't think that this would escalate to being all Game of Thrones-y and stuff, but if the issue is true, I don't think I could stand being touched by Harry again. Like literally touched. I don't want a divorce because my son would be affected by it, I mean how can he be a Prince if he's not near the palace? And if Harry and I would end up divorcing, then I won't be able to even drive Zachary into the palace walls, Austin would have to pick him up.
I'd have to step up from being Harry's wife to being Zachary's mother. And for me, being Zachary's mother is my number one responsibility now.